♥ She live in the existant world , full of hypocrites .♥

Sexcited:)

2011-06-07T23:50:00.001+08:00

Another three more weeks to come for our engagement dayIsn't it really fast how things are happening ? Syukur alhamdulillahTheres a saying that says ,Good things come to people who are willing to wait, insya allah i pray to Allah Swt that this relationship will last till eternity , Amin amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin. Preparations are done moderately cause we are not holding a big ceremony but a small one within our family members and friends. Insya allah , i hope everything will go on smoothly as planned . Theres no feelings that can describe how tremondously joyful I am currently (:Just wait patiently for the day to come ayye ? Goodnight lovelies.

Iphone

2010-11-08T23:33:00.001+08:00

Testing testing * Blogging using iphone .Checking 1,2,3 . K done ! Nitess ((: (after so long missing)

Back-dated pictures.

2010-05-23T17:32:00.006+08:00

As i promised , pictures on Adeyq&B.angah's birthday dinner .

Love ,
Ruzaini's .

Day & Night with Ruzaini Lee .

2010-05-23T15:39:00.009+08:00

FYI , baby is on mc for two weeks as he just undergo his wisdom tooth surgery . All his 4 tooth were plucked out but on diff dates . currently he's serving his confinement at home liao , unless if parents permits him to go out , on valid reason . shyaan baby .
And guess who's baby surgeon ?
Tadaaa ~~~~ !

Its Doctor HUR . haha . Funny but true . I was shocked and didnt believe at e first place till he showed me this letter . Ouhhh , ade jugak ehh orang w the same name as me , Ingat aku sorang juhrr . lols . But the different is the surgeon is chinese lady while im a malay . So dont think she knows whads the meaning of Hur base on our religion . But cool huhh ? ok lol , lame . =))

Actually that was only a sidetrack , Sajurh nak boast around my name to the whole world . lols. Like baby said , world-peace .=P

I was on mc thursday due to fever&flu . So i didnt get to meet baby on that day . ON friday , i dropped by baby's place after work and slack with him till near to midnite . Pictures were taken as per normal , w/o fail . On that day , baby nak perasan nyah sket , so he doll-ed himself w eyeliner , sumpah macam gegirl . tak tashyan boy tenoykq. haha . W his tipis eyebrow , i swear da mcm lembot .

adeyq beradeyq montotsoy dgn psp maseng2.

see his eyebrow ? sumpah tipis nak mamps !
mcm nyahh =p

da seakan kening kyte dua!kalau mama nampak nyh , confirm i matyh dulu baby .
i g kerjakan anak dy ny kening jadi cm gnyhkq.

along&and the twins bantal bushyuk .
sedaaap eyhhh , boleehh tidooor taw .

So and so , as along was playing card games w yana , i was sitting beside him , sucking my thumb and suddenly felt asleep .. just like a baby . hehhs .

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i kinda find this piece of art unique & exclusive .
Just like an illuminati . Credits to his friend ((: idkwho.

I left his place around 11 plus and waited for the cab .
We were about to hail a cab , when i felt giddy and keep on vomitting plus crying .
Baby was stunned cos that was his first time encountered this thing with me .
I think because of the few puffs of cigarettes that i took cos eventually when i fall sick , i tend not to smoke , cos my body cant take the smell or the taste of it . But being stubborn , i still had a few puff , so that was the result that i had to bare with . Sumpah , i was very giddy mcm nak jatoh je , luckily baby was there and strong enough to hold me . hehhs . Then , we went back again to baby's place as he wanted to take some cash . But then when mama saw my situation like that , she asked me to sleepover . Baby bukaayn maen sukaa sampai tak tydo the whole night. Playing com and sitting beside me the whole night , just to take care of me . How sweet of you sayaaang , i greatly and truly appreciate it . Thanks soo muchh , hearthrob .

The next day , i skipped work as im still sick . so around evening took another mc , and i get another 2 days of mc . So here i am , sitting at home resting . Tomorrow's gonna be another hell day , hell week for me at work . Confirm doraang buat muka cos i take another mc .
Behh daa sakeeyt suruh kerjaa jugaak agakny . gilaa ny oraang . Money-minded siiaa .
K watevaa . And besok malam , baby's booking in back to camp too . Another two more hell weeks for him , and lepas tooh ORD. Insya allah everytings gonna be fine , for your side and my side tooh k shayaang ?

Today im not meeting him cos he's out with family meeting his nenek on papa side .
Have a great time w your chinese grandma k , after all , she's still your blood k even thou different religion . iloveyou, Ruzaini .

Mother's Day Celebration With Bf's family .

2010-05-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

Alright , im gonna post all the out-dated pictures since its been a week mother's day has past and here i am just starting to post all the pictures . lols . Weekends were spent with bf's friends and familys .
And i really had a great time with these wonderful people . Greatly treasur-ed .

bby's happy family .

B.angah& mama

Nenek&B.angah .

mama,along,yana,nenek&adeykq.

me,yana,nenek&along .

grandparents((:

the mothers((: happy mom's day .

The present that baby & me bought for mama ((:

And the night before , we actually went out with baby's friends to orchid country club to bowl&pool . But since we have to queue for bowl , they pool-ed instead. Im excluded cos im a noob , ahuhh .
they were achul , mimi,haili, ang&steph, harvin ,baby&me. They pooled till 2am and then tot of going to some lan gaming places , but that was full too . so they had their supper ,and of we went to some ulu places near yishun , slacked , chilled and home-d. Time checked it was nearly 7am . We get to sleep only for few hours and then cabbed down to my place, get changed ,went to Lot 1 to find for mama's and ibu's mother's day gift .
And after all those fuss that i made ,we cabbed down to teckwhye to have dinner w baby's family . Parents fetched me , and home sweet home. 2 days straight , back to back . Sumpahh ,im knackered . Totally exhausted but on a brighter note , i really had fun and satisfaction ((:

baby didnt went back home so he's wearing
the same shirt as yesterday ((:

Camwhoring in the cab while heading back to my crib .

There's alot more pictures to update actually . But time is running out . Its midnight , and bf will surely go berserk if im still on the com , continue blogging . Alright2 , next event; B.angah's and adyq(the twins) belated birthday . Will upload all the pictures soon . And boyfriend , iloveyou ok ? soo muchh .hugshugshugs .

2010-05-05T21:13:00.002+08:00

*im growing fatter everyday-.-*

Since today im alone and no one's accompanying , i decided to blog and let out my heart contents.
Blogging used to be my favourite pasttime when im sad, lonely and no one to turn to when i have some issues in mind . And since im having some problem with myself , i need to letout for i will breakdown if i keep in heart too long .

Im having some shortage at work , its actually not some laa . Quite an amount which i feel heavy-hearted to make good . And the worst thing is that i didnt even declare it to my BM due to guilty-conscious . The result was living in my own fear everyday when i come to work . haaaisssh , pengecot kaayn ? yeaa true . Even i myself agree with that statement . Its been nearly a week and my mind is not in ease . Its either i declare to them or i make good myself for all the shortage that ive done . What should i do ? I get nightmare every night , every morning i want to step my leg to work , afraid that there's something that i might do wrong at work . In places like this , that deals with big sum of money , i know i need to be honest , or it ended up eating up myownself , as in lose people's trust , etc etc . See i even know how to put it nicely in words but in order for me to face the truth , im a coward -.-

Im being super sensitive and being a cry-baby lately . My prediction was because of changes in hormones as im gona have my menstrual cycle really soon . But this is getting worst . I can be mad over minor stupid things . Do you believe i can even be mad about a kitten ? And kitten was the issue for our stupid fight . -.- bleeaarghh . I told you im being soo super sensitive that i can feel the jealousy impact so strong . I dont know how to handle it or to be mild .

Currently my thinking and imagination really runs wild . I think about all the unnecessary stuff that makes me more pressurize . stupid little things i should say ? Entahh maybe because of my insecurity or maybe cos im missing someone too muchh ? yeaaaahh . I feel really lonely -.-
Where's all my friends go missing ? I miss them soo muchh . haiisshh . The friendship that we build for so long ,i dont want it to perish just like that . I really treasure my friends , all the things that they do for me , i appreciate and remember till now , just so you guys know ok . I dont throw my friends . I need some remedy to ease my heart, my mind so i can be normal , laughing smiling like i always do . ape ehh yang bagos ? hmmm .. one thing i miss clubbing . Bkn ape2 laa its just that i miss the atmosphere. To me drink&club makes a perfect duo . Kalau minom biasa2, tak feel apa2 . But too bad , boyfriend is not a clubber , and he dont favour going club . So i have to retain the lust of going partying . But thats the only option that i can think of right now -.-

I start to think the redundant stuff , again . Like , bf dont have the time to entertain me like before , he's love going to fade, he wont pamper me like he used to , he even forget the normal routine things that he always do , and makes me upset . I think im too pampered , too lonely till i have such thinking in mind . too longing and craving for boyfriend to be by my side =( And i cried in the train just now , thinking that boyfriend has forgotten about me , and that he dont care at all , worst he going to leave me , soon . hmmmm . I think because kiky grabs his attention away from me , thats why now its all about kiky . And i hate kiky -.- Now he only know how to pamper kiky , take care of kiky's well being without asking whether have i eaten , hows my day at work , and etc . See the diffrence ? Hmmm . Bad kiky . Notti baby make me upset . -.-

Im addicted to this , seriously .
Powerr duhhrr , macam bolee goyang kepala gytoohyq
((:

Tiring Tuesday

2010-05-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

Darling you are my only exception *
Ruzaini Raaziq Lee.

Its been quite a long time that i didnt manage to update my blog but let it be dusted .
Easy said , i'll only blog when i feel to , or else i'll just leave my blog full of cobweb .

Currently im struggling with work , shortage almost everyday and i swear the feeling sucks big time . I complained to bf every single day about my work and things that ive been assigned to do. Bf being so supportive and understanding hearing my groan without sighing , instead motivate me with words that uplift my spirit to get back to work . iloveyou,baby .

Baby's going on duty for the next four weekends before he finish serving his ns life, and that means , lesser time for us to meet and spend time together . I'll sacrifice this 1 mth for you baby . Its just one month of waiting and you are free , be strong k baby . Have faith . Thats important .
I want you to pass out with license in your hand , make your family proud of you . And im proud of my baby too . Cos i know you can really do it , with flying colours ((: *hug baby tight*

And Ruzaini got a new love , her name is Kiky .
Heyloooh Kiky , im jealous of you cos my bf pamper you more than I do .
Hmmmm not fair , love =((
Thanks to Kiky , Ruzaini pamper me a bit more than usual , hehhs .

Now , Ruzaini merajok with me cos of my mouth .
Hmmm bad hur .
So now nak kene pujuk si manja nyh .
howhow ?
Better call him or he will said i put him aside because of my fcking com .
lols .

update soon again .
With love .

*h i s l i t t l e g i r l*

Wonderful People .

2010-05-04T20:44:00.007+08:00

28/04/2010

Marks the last day of our 8 days course . And im missing all these wonderful people that i just know . This are the pictures taken on our final day . We gonna meet again and the same place, 1 mth from now for our theory test . Good luck fellows.

Mr Cheng our mentor ((:

Ain & Jun

Jun & Hur

Anna , Hur & Aishah

Fathin Darling ((:

The only smokers .

My messy desk .

Update soon .
With love ,
Hur .

❥ ʀʋʐʐαιɴι ˋ ѕ .

2010-04-25T16:52:00.003+08:00

And yes , eventually some things did happened which was unexpected and i didnt blame bf for being mad at me -.-
In a relationship , we cant avoid to have those cats and dogs fight , misunderstanding or an arguement between both parties . But the main thing is how we cope and handle those situation so it wont perpetuate and draw situation worst .
Thanked God , things are getting milder now . I cant bare the hot&cold messages nor phone calls from baby anymore .
Im sorry love for misusing the trust that have been given to me and not being wholly honest to you .
I know , after that incident, its kinda arduous for you to trust me again , but believe me , there is nothing for me to hide from you anymore .. and thats purely truthfully from my heart .
Iloveyou baby ruzz and im sorry for whatever things that happened that come from my side ..
I wont let any third party to intrude and let us down ... Not even from my past nor yours . Ok sweetheart ? *hug baby tightly*.

Ive realised a big difference in myself .
Ive G A I N weight ok . I G A I N fcking weight .
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Due to being sooo uber happy leading my new life ayye .
And i realised that in baby too . He's getting abit boncheyyt now . heee .
No matter what , i still love baby sooo much , youre the only apple to my pie =)

Im started to crave for alot of sweet things right now .
Hari-hari i will complain to baby im craving for this and that , this and that .
My current obsession is Cinammon Melts from Mcd .
P O W E R dehh !
My new sextoy , orgasm thing . Boleee orgasm ehh makan bende tooh , serious tak bedek , LOLs.
Everytime jumpa bby , thats the only thing i ask for , like hari2 is a must to have that in my list .
Bby also melayan , maken menjadi bbygirl kaayn .
Im expanding ok , thanx to that obsession !

Baby just reached camp .
He sounded so sad & down as he have to book in on sunday , leaving me out for a week .
Hmmmm , baby be patience ok..i'll be here waiting.. Counting down days to weekend , so we could spend quality time w each other again ....
Don feel insecure cos youre in camp and im out here , cos my feelings for you would neva change..
When i chose the person , its only him in my heart . And the only person , its you Ruzaini , Only you . Put your doubtness aside , cos i nevaa intend to cheat you in anyways ....

So tomorrow i have to go back to Aljunied for my course . Left only 3 days and back to basis .
Currently talking on the phone with babyboy . Accompanying him talking so he wont be feeling that down . Tyaaaannn baby manjaa nyhh solaang .

"Achul , achul nak lawan plesioth ?"
lols .
*shhhhshhhshhhshhh*

Will update soon , need to concentrate talking w baby ((:
Lovehugsandkissess ;
hislittlegirl.

Precious moments with little one .

2010-04-22T21:36:00.011+08:00

Kinda knackered after work , but feeling contented as i got the chance to spend quality time with little one . iloveyou , babygirl .

8 days course .

2010-04-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

Currently , im attending an 8 days course which was assigned by Singpost for all the new recruits. Before hand, i was really looking forward to attend this course as i know i'll be meeting new colleagues and that is the same range age of mine . And bet i really do make frens w them .
They are all friendly and wonderful people , i should say ((:

And , the one that im really close with is the girl of the same age as mine , Nur Fathin .
Senang kataa gerek ny kaki . Beboal merepek , tydoo when class is being conducted , layan dy pehh mepek depan conductor , sampai kan conductor tooh pon da malas nak layan kyte . lols .
makan , minom , tydoo sesukaa atyhh kyte je . bikin tmpt tooh mcm tempat kyte sendiri . The worst thing , we really sit infront of the conductor , haha . naseb baeykq dy diam je , kalau dy pau pat BM maseng2 mati sehh satu2 . So we are left with 4 days left till we complete our course . Hmm then back to reality ; work work work . Siiiannn .

Nice taaykq? heee . It was baby's idea ((: and i love it soooo muchh .

Weekend's .

2010-04-19T23:43:00.004+08:00

" Love, I don't need those things I don't need no ring I don't need anything . But you with me 'Cause in your company I feel happy ,so happy and complete . Baby, I know what to do, Baby, I will love you, I'll love you, I'll love you.. So won't you be my honey bee, Giving me kisses all the time Be mine, be my Valentine .. "

Lost & Found .

2010-04-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

Well , Monday was a super blue mood for me .
Two things that happened on that day, of which i wont elaborate on the first one , but the second incident.
Due to being reckless and absent-minded , i actually lost my wallet at workplace . And i only realised it when i knock off from work . Frantically , i was searching it high and low but to no avail . Only god knows , how do i felt since that was my first time losing a wallet . Everything was inside it from ID, money to house key . And i was super panicky at that moment . I start to call my parents , then i told my dad about it , but hew was being sarcastic and act as if it was just a minor thing, till i cry .. lols . Gembeng kaaayn ? I was talking to them as if im whining on the phone, crying non-stop . And then , konon ny , my brother was the saviour laa , fetched me from work just to pass me transport money . But then he was being super self-centered which i dont want to elaborate more about that -.-

Baby was super mad at me for being so careless . Oraang tgh sedeh but he was maraah2 , making me super down . He was in camp when i reported to him that i lost my wallet , so technically we were on the phone,talking . But then i dont have the mood to talk as i was in a devastated state . Lost wallet mcm hilaang matae ehh , baby ? lols . I gurau ajee ouhkay , baby dont take it to heart ayye . *hug tightly*
And then when i was on my way back home , baby beep me asking where am I , and i replied on my way home . And he told me to update him when i reach yewtee. As usual i will , cos i know he's in camp , no nites out on that night .
To my surprise, when i alighted at yewtee , i saw my baby really standing infront of me ! Mygawd, it s like a dream yaa know . The one that i really want to be beside me when i was super down , was really standing infront of me . Happy banqett siihh !
I hugged baby and kissed , i was sooo happy , he was really there for me when im in need. Its the small little things that count , and i treasure every bits and pieces of it , babylove((:

So baby ajak go dinner , even though i dont have the appetite to eat , but for baby's sake , i eat infront of him , even though it takes me some time to swallow but i managed . Then baby followed me to make a police report for the lost item . Slacked , chilled , till the time baby have to report back to camp =((

Thankyou , hearthrob .

That was monday incident .

On the next day , after i reached home from work , mom opened the door and said ,
" tadi ade orang datang kasi wallet kau alek . Dy cakap jumpa pat dalam bus no 7 . So dy tinggal dekat2 sini , and hantar kan pat rumahh "
I was like , ehh really dapat wallet , so no need to make a new ic . Kinda happy laaa , but the thing that i lost , was money , ezlink , and some coins . Suar pehhh pencurykq . And bus no 7 eyhh ? Since when i take that bus pon taaaytaao . -.- Dehhh . And foe the fellow that make the effort to returned my wallet safely , thankyou soo much for your help . I think w/o your help , sampai skrgg tak dapat jumpa my wallet lagi , and my ic . Only God can repay your kindness .

Wednesday night , i get tooh meet babyboy since dy ade nightsout . Met me under my void-deck , we chilled , talked , brawled , and things that lovers do . Im soooo in love w my baby tawtaw . heee =))
We had a serious heart-to-heart talk when baby was sending me back home . Alhamdulillah , we managed to settle without having to drag matter .
Then home-d , chatted with wawa , as its been a long time we didnt have the chance to share secrets and girls talk w each other . and before sleep , talked w my baby for awhile before i was lost in my own dream .

I need to go for now , will be back to blogging when i have the time .
Cant wait for weekends to come , to spend my bestest moment wit love !
Counting days *
*Grin widely*

lovelove ;
hislittlegirl

My Only Exception .

2010-04-11T22:46:00.012+08:00

Today's post is much more on pictures and pictures and pictures .
Like i promised , i'll update all the pictures that i took w babyboy since the day we get close and started to spend time w each other .
Cos , action speaks louder than words ..
And no words can describe how im feeling right now .
Its Unbelievable
((:

1st April 2010.

No pictures were takenn . Dunno whye eyhh ? hmmm . We go watch midnight movie together @ jurongpoint ! Rec002 . Cool . It was baby's idea . Slacked together till the first light , and off we went back by cab . Thanx for the day sayaaang ((=

02April2010.

Baby accompanied me to Imm at night, then sent me home and slacked under my void deck .
Just a random pictures of my babyboy ((=
We slacked till 3.am in the morning ,then we departed, and i only get to sleep for two hours before wakeup and went to work .

Kataaa rock selumber paarh ?
He's my RuZz SeLuMbEr ((=

03April2010.

On this particular day , baby invited me to his family's pit .
For the first I met with his friendly family members and mama's friends too .
They are very welcoming and welcome me with an open heart .
With baby always on my side , i dont feel like an outcast .
Cos he's always there to make me feel comfortable even though he knows i feel shy and awkward.
Thanks hearthrob!

I arrived quite late actually for the pit, as im from home and it was raining on that particular day. They started to pack up around 11 plus then we followed papa's car as he was sending us back home . But since i was super craving for mc spicy on that day(idk why too) , we decided to have our late supper at bukit batok instead . just baby and me ((=
Before that , dropped by baby's crib and chatted w mama and yana . Mama showed me all of along's picture when he was small . So freaking cute cos he have the biggest head out of all siblings , haha ((= Baby dont be mad ouhkay when u read ,whadever it is , still shayaaang kahmu , atemm!

And we had our mcspicy meal @ 2;36am ....

The special order is with extra cheese and mine is fries withOUT salt . ayye baby ?
We call it a night , and home sweet home .

04April2010.

Met baby again , this time round i followed him to his friend engagement day .
meetup at 5pm @ yewtee and off we went to meet his friends at admiralty .

I went home first as im working early the next day , and baby followed his friends slacking till the next day (:

05April2010.

The day that baby got to book in back to camp =(
After my work , we had dinner at Secret Recipe forum together .
My treat , iloveyou, Ruzaini .

Fish&Chips 4 me and cordonbleu for baby ((=

Shopping for my mom's gift and i bought for her charles&keith's handbag .
Then off we go home , as baby sent me off first and back to his camp .

07April2010.

Baby get to book-out for awhile and meet me up at my void-deck .
We had dinner at yewtee point then slacked for awhile , before he had to go back to camp before 11 pm =((
No pictures were takenn , time were so limited !

Finally .........

09April2010 - 10April2010.

Back to back 4 two days .

Baby fetched me under my void-deck then we slacked for awhile before proceed w baby's next planning . And since i saw baby using long black sweater , me too nak keypohh2 wear the same as him , sempat naek umaaa , tukaar same thing like his ! keypooh kaayn i baby ?! tawww... Jiwe you mahh . haha . lols .
Ouhkayy then , baby was playing his psp , too engrossed while i snapped some pictures .

Baby's favourite;DJ MAX.

This is whad we called;too engrossed.

Baby's creation of l.o.v.e ...........

Sweeet kaaaynn atemm nyhh soraaang ! It was last minute yaa know , when kita danak jumpa , he takes about 20 mins just to draw this thing and wear it when he we meet-up .
Awwwww..... boy , cair girl ehh ? lols . Yes , its half my name and half baby's .
I totally love it sooo muchh ! taaaayaaaang baby i ... he's being such a sweetheart yaa know ((:

Then we go yishun met ankz&steph, mady also joined . they lan-gaming , while me blogging .
And halfway i was asleep hugging my knees , plus sucking my thumb . How cute caaayn that be ? hehhs . Perasan kaayn ? lols . But i kno im a baby laaa kaayn , teeheee .
Then around 5am baby wake me up , then off we go ...
Ankz&steph hailed a cab around 6am . While baby& me still there taktaaoooo bwad ape laaah kaayn . Then we go yewtee , have breakfast at macd !
Finally , a breakfast w him .
Dinner-DONE.
Supper-DONE.
Breakfast-DONE.
Lunch-when can dat be , love ?
*planningplanning*

Baby's morning face . cuteness.

he's too tired layan me taking pictures. can tell through his face((:

Off we go to somewhere.
Everything bahan kekek , haha especially me , pasal daaa terlalu nantoykqqq .
Its unforgettable moment ayye baby ?
Mak chu , mama , papa , wayang , bola ,contraband , and numbers . lols .
Its linked .

Why does tonight, have to end?
Why don't we hit restart,
And pause it at our favorite parts.
We'll skip the goodbyes.
If i had it my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway,
Just you and i..

Baby's back too camp ..
& im missing baby with bits and pieces of my heart ...
starting back to work tomorrow ..
And just waiting for weekend to come again , just to see my baby's face and makes
me melt over and over again ... kaaayn babyboy ? ((:

Thanks soo muchh for the suweet offline msges, the long msges that was created by you , sweetheart ..
I hope you are sincere too in this relationship , just like i do ..
I cant bear any heartbreak anymore ..
And with you , i found love , i learn to love again and learnt to be loved by someone special . You are far in distance , yet so close too my heart that i can sense you every breath that i inhale . Ruzaini , i promised to be the goodgirl of yours , to change for the better , not only for you but for my own good , to not act like a typical girls , to always be your eye candy , to always listen to you , to be the one & only babygirl in your eyes ..
Though i never thought that we could go one step further , i never thought that i could fall in love again , but you came , and change my life , changed everything ..
Like you said baby , not like those typical iloveyou sayings but more right ?
Yes , compromising , honesty , trusting plays a role too .
And as we both knows that both of us was just out of a broken hearted relationship .
And i truly hope you are sincere baby , not just a rebound thingy , that will last for a short while .. I wanna see my future w you , even though i foreseen obstacles in the future , but im determine to go through those shits , thick& thin w my one&only baby ruzae .
Trust me baby , i love you ,& i do i do ...

Quoted from BabyRuzae;
baby, i wanna let u know something. rmbr that day ankz ask u the "hot seat qns"? what are we? im touched. hees. i hope in your eyes, u see us like an item, just like i do. i wana go far with u, bkn stakat kata2 sahaja. u da become a part of my life baby. tanpa mu, tidak dapat ku bayangkan apa yg akan terjadi kpd ku. kerana ku telah jatuh cinta dgn mu, teramat dalam :)

and for sure i'll try my very best to make u the happiest girl. but still sometimes due to human errors, do forgive me k baby.

not everyone is perfect, and thus im not too. but i'll give my best shot. and for your part, u must support me as well. i don't wana have that TYPICAL iloveyou / youloveme kind of relationship. i want more. more understanding, give and taking and fun-filled loveing adventure with someone i call MY OTHER HALF.

21032010, the date i find most memorable, coz it's the day that i first chatted with u. from then, magic happens. you are someone with a beautiful, caring heart.

RuZz CuLLeNs ♥ hislittlegirl .

2010-04-10T03:02:00.002+08:00

People , im baaack ! ((=
yeahh , i kno ive been on hiatus for quite sometimes .
And pardon me for privatising my blog temporarily ,
due to changing to a new blogskin .

So how do you guys find it ?
I know its rather plain and simple but this time round i prefer it to be combination of white & pink .
No moree dark colours , cos it makes my life dull , and i dont even have the mood to blog by seeing it .
Lols . apaaarhh cakaayp ?

Time checked ; 3;32am people .
Currently im at yishun @ one of the 24 hrs lan gaming place accompanying baby & friends's playing their dunno whaad
addiction . Luckily im not into all this craps . Sorry for all the lan-gamers , its just not in my blood , i guess .
So while baby , taking his own super sweet time , enjoying the moment playing online games , i take the chances to blog since my blog is sooooo dusty & rusted and un-readable .
Atleast , something rather than watching game freaks got hooked into left4dead,dota and what got you .

Baby is sitting beside me , montotsoyyy dengan left4dead sangat2 , sampai agaknyeee dy lupaa yang babygirl is sitting beside him .
HELLO baby , likee im invisible eyhh ? hahaa .
Oklaaa , naseb baeykqq i got things tooh do , taaykq bored to death sangat .
Baby im hungryy !! We go eat kaayhh after this , pretty please please please !
Just now , i met baby at around nynee plus , he fetched me under my void-deck , slacking around and then proceed to yishun to meet his other friends , so now here we are @ wee hours .

I was on mc just now due tooh my stomach infection again .
So i get two days mc that is friday & saturday .
Powerr dehh !
Esok kaaayn go out w babyboy laagykq , as sunday morning he gonaa book-in camp as he is on duty =((
Sedehh seyhh . Its like taaykq puas dapaat jumpa dy taw .
Sobsobs .
Nvm , atleast i get to spend my today and tomorrow with you , hearthrob .
sayaaang kahmuu banget2 dehhh !((=

I got alot of pictures tooh upload actually , since now im using public's computer ,
i guessed i have tooh upload it when im at home , later on .
So many things to update , so little time .
Haiyaaa siiiann arhh .

Work is really wearing me out .
So i wont elaborate much on that .
Pening kepala dohhh pikir pasal kerjaaaa . nyeet -.-

I miss baby sooo muchhh even thou he's currently sitting beside me right now ..
-.-Nyeeeet .

Alright , will update pichaas of baby using my own desktop .

Till then , have a nice weekend people .
Lovelove *

Yesterday was a fairytaleee .

2010-03-28T19:43:00.003+08:00

Im leading a hectic life trying to adapt to new environment and stuff .
Now , i rarely have time for myself , no more night life , even being inactive to blog .
Macam malas gytooh arhhh .
My daily routine starts as early as 6am till 6pm .
Alek penat tydooo , bangon pagi kerja , ptg alek tydo , esok bgn .
waahh siiiia arhhh .
Booooriiing .
Dhen now da rynduuu club club .
how how ?
Hmmmphfftt .
BUT , nxt week mr haizel ajak g par-tyyyyyy !
best derhhh ! hahaaa .

then only yesterday , i get to enjoy my weekends .
Went to pasir ris park with ruzz & his campmates as doraaang ade gathering kaaayt saana .
He invited me there just for the sake of temaaan kaan , since i have no plans , i just teman kaayn lorhh . Kebetulan glandyn fishball also at pasir ris downtown east , he wanted to meet me but at the time when he called , my hp was not w me , soo too bad tak dapat jmp dy as per requested . maybe next tym ayye fishball ? ((:

I really had fun last night ! doraaang bukaaykq botol , since ramai jugak org yg mynom so tak rasa sangatt arhh . Got 2 bottles of chivas , absolute vodka , red label , and some others .
But i ony drink sket ajeeee . hmmphft . stkt stim2 abit dhen daa ok , borrring kaaayn ? da lamaa tak drink sampai drunk .. wuhooo , powerr dehh !
Ouuhhhh aaahh lupaaa nak bilaang ! semalam tyme kat pit ade one of mu junior from my former school , nama dy Hanafi . mcm tak pcy gytooh daa besar siol skrg ! now 17 tapi daa mcm 20 plus . dy maseh kat irsyad , and he drinked ! ahaaa , powerr dehh , ade kaki siol . dy lagii muka decent nak mamps , but oklaaa... same like me , takle comment banyak2 hor . =))

then we slacked , ruzz dgn kwn2 dy maen gitar memekak2 , dhen i play games w his fren kat ipod touch , challenge taptap revenge 3 , then i kalahhh =(( then his frenn kasi chance , so i win , hehhs happyhappy taw .

then we taaaykq tydooo at all . ok bedek , i tydo sejap je around 15 mins before dawn , then the first light tros kitaoraaang chiaaooww . Sampai home at nyneee am , washup and stuff tros goneee samapi 5pm . Currently watching night at the museum , geyrekkkq dehh ! haha .
stoppit sehh hur dgn dehh pegi dehh alek . lols .

I dont want to stress myself up pasal work . Cant wait till weekends . and friday gonna be an off day for me pasal public holiday ! ayye bay bay ! tapi sadly , sat tetap kene kerja balek . boriiing siaaa -.- Naaaykq kerja banyaaak simpan duet pastoooh .... dhen can plan lorhhh . ade banyak itinerary dalam kepala otak skrgg so cnt figure out which come first and so on ... yeahh bay bay .

ayye , wanna watch teebeee for now ,
hugs hugs hugs *

Truth Revealed .

2010-03-18T03:37:00.003+08:00

Mate you're too late
And your weren't worth the wait
Now were you?
It's out of my hands
Since you blew your last chance
When you played me

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that I'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby you ain't all that
Maybe there's no way back
You can keep talking
But baby I'm walking away

When I found out
How you messed me about
I was broken
Back then I believed you
Now I don't need you
No more

The pick on your phone
Proves you weren't alone
She was with you yeah
Now I couldn't care
That you weren't aware
We're through

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that I'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby you ain't all that
Maybe there's no way back
You can keep talking
But baby I'm walking away

Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we're happy, or that he's happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true . -Quoted-

Dead & Goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee `

2010-03-17T11:50:00.004+08:00

ALHAMDULILLAH .

Im starting over a new life , turning over a new leaf .
Oh Allah , please guide me through all this obstacle thats happening .
Im in need of strength, physically and mentally .

Im gonna let no one to bring me down , again .

N E V E R .

& specifically to that someone , lead a happy life with your friends , since that satisfied you most and which you cant live without .
Now Im Gone , Im Gone ...

Now im left dealing with a new blog url .
IDEAS IDEAS IDEAS !

You dont have to call anymore , i wont pickup the phone .

The last straw .

Dedicated for you ; tinggal kenangan ,

Imy, Goodbye ....

2010-03-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

Im crying right now , cos of you .
Till when u gonna hurt me with ur words & action ?

Im totally sick & tired of all this thing ...
PLease go , go out of my life ...
Im begging you ..
I cant bear to stand the hurt & pain that u caused over and over again .

Its all empty hopes & lies .
alibis by alibis , promises that are meant to be broken .

Its totally not fair !!
How could you , im suffering in silence .

I rather kill myself and die , then letting you keep on hurting me with your sweet words .

Fcuk you bitch .

I wish you die .

GOandDIE GOandDIE GOandDIE !!!!

I cannort stand this pain any longer , i have to hurt myself .

Cus big girls dont cry anymore .

2010-03-15T02:00:00.001+08:00

I've always fantasize that my love life would always turn out
as what i wanted it to be ..
The one , that i always day-dream about , when i know its impossible .
I want exactly like the one in fairytales .
I put big fat hopes on that .
But , do fairy tales always come true ?
Maybe yes , maybe NO .

Like cinderella and her prince charming .
Sleeping beauty and e prince , that kiss her 100 years later just to wake break the spell .
Beauty and the beast , of which the beast was spelled and when he meet her princess , they fall in love , and the beast was transformed again to a royal prince .
And many more , perhaps ?
I always wish i have one love fairy tale life , just like them .
Sounds absurd ,huh ?
I know . This is what i always narrate to people when they tend to ask me about this thingy .

My fantasy will always begin like this ...

That im a princess from a royal blood , and they'll be one day that a prince charming from nowhere would come and save me . He's gonna be my saviour , my knight in shining armour , riding a horse , and he's gonna bring me far away , far far away and save me from the monstrous and hideous people that surrounds my life . And then , he'll bring me to a tower(konon mcm eiffel tower laaah kaayn) of which he gonna propose me as his wife , witnessed by thousand of people , and then they gonna throw red&white roses to us from the bottoom of the tower . And im gonna be the most happiest woman on earth with my beloved paramour . And guess the ending ? Of course , we gonna make babies and we gonna live happily forever ever and after till death do us apart .
Sweet , huhh ?
Ohh well , day dreaming never come true .
And im gonna fantasize it for the rest of my life .
Yeahhh .
Zaman skrgg , mana ada orang tunggang kuda lagi ? And lagi satu , kat singapore nyh ade tower ape ? paleng2 tower building office tinggi2 ade lurh . Suntec City pon ade tower jugak . Tower 1 Tower 2 , sampai Tower 5 pon ade . Pilih aje .
HELLO ! KRRRRINGGGGGGG ! WAKEUP lurhh hur eyhh . nyhh Singapore , unless lurhh if you stay english country ke hape ,bolehh laa day dreaming mcm gnyhh kaayn .
BUT , alangkah bagos nyaaa kalau jadi kenyataan kaaayn ? ((:
WOW , my sidetracks are getting way too far from the real life story and getting more ridiculous .

So , here comes e part when reality hits .
Love stories has never been real easy like that .
And of course , there's exceptional to the lucky ones .
And im of the unlucky one , i should say .. maybe perhaps i havent found my
prince charming yet ? ohh shuddup .

Now ive regretted , for holding on to my past for too long .
I guessed i might be losing alot of good friends that has been supporting me
and help me to moved on , all this while ..
I let many people down , especially my own self .
cos im hurting myself more than i even imagined .

Now , im giving up ... im letting go of my past , yes and i hope this gonna be the last .
I dont wanna dwell anymore to things that wont ever be the same like before .
I miss my friends , i abandoned them , i abandoned my life , hoping that someone would actually change , but to no avail .
Im just putting up high hopes that wont ever come true ..
Now im putting a stop to all this mess .
It has to stop now , or never will it end .
I totally gave up .

I totally N E E D my old life back .
The balieu me , the friendly and spoilt me ,
the laughter that i used to have , the smile that i always carved .
Must really really find it again .
I know i can do it .

And yes , Im changing my phone number , real soon , like really REAL SOON .
And and , privating my blog , wont make any difference anymore.
Thought of changing to a new link , BUT , havent found the right one yet .
ANY ideas ? ((:

Like one of my friends said , " move on my friend , dont let your past affect you "
True true . Now i started to visualize , what he meant .
Thankyou soo much , kahmu ((:

And i miss alot of my friends .
Especially fishball & cinohh . Miss them fcuking muchhh -.-
Sorry guys , for not being a good friend .
Im gonna get back to you guys , soon ayye ?
((:

I got this one link and i find it very interesting ,
perhaps you guys might have watched it ,
its about a confession of a 15 years old girl slept with men over 300 times.
MUST watch kayh kayh kayh ?

Much love ,
hislittlegirl .

Splendid nights spent with DFF .

2010-03-11T13:39:00.009+08:00

Alright , i might as well let the pictures do the talking ayye , as im feeling very very very effing lazy to update .
To sum up everything , i had awesome time with DFF and new friends . Two straight days .
From esplanade river , to boat quay pub , to slacking , till the next day , back to the same place again . Big 2-ing , Race-ing , Stress-ing , laughing my ass out till i drop dead cry , flying cards ,
drinking , they karaoke-ing , and much much more . & i love last week and the precious moment spent with them . `04.03.10 - 05.03.10` Sayaaang DFF ❤ .

Saying good-bye isn't the hardest part ,
it's what we leave behind that's tough .... -Quoted-

I've thrown my dreams .

2010-03-10T00:53:00.004+08:00

I don't wanna speak these words
'Cause
I don't wanna make things any worse

Why does tonight have to end?
Why dont we hit restart
And pause it at our favorite parts
We'll skip the goodbyes .

Please , skip the goodbye part -.-

* May the friendship of you both last till e end . *

I just wonder ,

do you ever think of me ,

anymore.... Do you ?

Chipsmoreee ?

2010-03-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

You come and go whenever you like .
You come with hand fulls of hopes & promises, when theres nothing ,
and im the one who being so foolish enough
to stay and listen to all your lies & alibis .
Why am I being so dumb ?

And now you went missing , again .
Surely , you'll come again with your unlogical reason ,expecting me to believe
every single excuses .
Gossshhh ` , it knock me down .
But , why am I still here ?

You are giving me reason such like , you need some space to ease your mind , about everything that is happening , especially about e problem u r facing , about ***** , about whoeva , thats why you've not been contacting me , when all you do is prioritizing ur frens ,slacking , and still got the cheeks to tell me that a few people start to fall for you ? like what the ...... ??
Till now , i dont understand exactly , whadayaaa want from me ?
Im really hurt by your attitude , you never change .

People , please knock some sense in my head .

Looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn't know.
Could've loved you all my life if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold.

And you've got your share of secrets and I'm tired of being last to know.
And now you're asking me to listen cause it's worked each time before...

And you tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you, like I did before
You're not sorry ...

Monday blues .

2010-03-02T02:15:00.003+08:00

"I believe one of the toughest situations you can be ever faced with is deciding whether you should just move on or hold on a little tighter. Move on, and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have ever happened, or hold on and have the possibility of your heart being broken." -quoted .

sesungguhnya ku ingin dirimu ,
tuk cairkan hatiku yang beku ,
tapi aku belum siap , aku masih dilemma ...

C U R S E .

2010-03-01T01:21:00.006+08:00

SLIPPER NIKE AKU KENE CUREYKQ KAT LUAR RUMAH .
KNNCCB .
SIAPA YG CURIKQ TOOH AKU SUMPAH KAKI DY BERKUDIS SIOL .
SLIPPER FAVOURITE AKU LAGI , TAKLE TERIMA AHH WYY .
GERRRRAM JEYKQ .

*pink is mine*

Tooh taykqpe .
Curikq galah lagii .
Galahh ade baju2 aku , baju pon nak curik ?!
sengkek pe sial ?!
WTF .
ni part , serious takle tashyaaan .
ade ke patot ?
nak block shopping pon tak agak2 sehh .
GALAH nak curik ?! LIKE **** .

Tgk , daa kene forkout money to buy a new slipper ,NIKE .
beh carik2 pat banyaaak tempat , slipper NIKE tayqde stock laaa apelaaa .
Nabeyyhhh .
Mcm panas jeykq arhhhh .
Isshhhh , saya betol2 taykq puas atyhh dgn oraang yang curykq slipper nyhh .
Babi , tak mampu nak beli . -.-
Tgk je , barang kau comporm kene chongkong aleykq punyaaa .
Taykpetayqkpe , KARMA ade .
Tunggu dan liat ajeykq , k ?
((:

On a brighter note ; i got a NEWLOVE from someone .
A new MICKEY MOUSE for me .
happy gilerrr , shayaaaaang bangett siihh shamaa NEWLOVE gue ((=
Siap letaaaykq kaayn nama lagi utk baby baru nyhhh .
Mickey , gue CHYNTHAAAA kahmuu !

Baby NuNu is back !
Kangenn banget shamaaa diia .

Tayqde mood today naaykq blog ,
dunno whyy .
Missing someone jugaaa -.-

Bye , love .

Tu Me Manques .

2010-02-25T20:47:00.008+08:00

Currently blogging using cousin's lappy . Well , today and tomorrows is my off day . Spent the whole day at home , helping granny with the house chores . And i'd just finished mopping the house . Well , i guessed parents is having a good time now in Egypt . Counting a few more days left till i get tooh meet babygirl . Goshhh , i missh her frreaking muchh ! 3 more days .

I left blogging for about two weeks , and alot of things had happened in my life .
Alot of things i need to clear out, and how i wish i could let it out all throu blogging . But too bad , some things have to be kept confidential .

Well , last week i did went to club , but i dont really enjoy myself at all . Commotion happened , and it really spoilt my mood , sorry Ryan for leaving you all alone . I feel soo bad and guilty -.-

Karaoked with ain & nana on last week friday , and thanks to ain for the karaoke treat .
Hope to meet you guys soon .

And i feel bad couldnt send off girlfriend nellie , on the day she migrated to australia , im gonna miss you sooo much , sayaaang . And heyy , i received a phone call from her this afternoon . I was soo freaking surprised and our conversation last for about 30 mins . Glad she's doing fine , and i hope she gonna lead a good life w her family . Aku tunggu kau pulang time aryhh rayaa okehh darling ?! ((= heeee .

And she said tooh me " aku nak kau fecth aku to and fro bila aku alek sg and time nak alek australia nanti . Kau jangan nak paitaoh2 aku lagi ! " dhen i was like , " ingat jugak kau pat aku ehh ? " and she replied , "of course ahhh , kau kaaayn lesbian partner aku , mestyhh aku sayaang kau !" hahaa . itu sudaaah teraaang dohh ! too bad , we didnt get to club together before she left singapore . I'l wait for your return , baby ((:

And finally , long lost friend , contacted me back .
I was awaken by her message on saturday morning .
" IF , is that you ? "
Cant revealed her identity , but all i can say is that , im soo freaking
contented when she found me again .
All along i kept thinking of her , everytime, and my feeling grew stronger every day , tak sangka itu petanda yang dy akan kembali pulang .((:
Thanx DF , kerna kembali dalam idop gue . Gue janji akan terus menganggu idop lorh dlm suka dan duka . hahaaa.
Looking forward to our meeting ! ((: okehh , this time round gue enggak paitao . So are we going on dutch , or you change your mind ? heeee . Hope so nort .

OHHHHHHHH ` .
Adaa oraang cakap , nak carik aku , nak gegar .
yewtee bkn kecheykq ehh ?
oklaaa , aku tak laryhh .
masehh tetap disini .
kalau nak carik , carik .
And anw , im not interested in KORANGKORANG pehhh JANTAN , either .
So please ehh , i got a better taste .
Ouhh , didnt i tell you , im half-straight ? ((:

BODOH pehh pompann .
Aku budak taeykq ke apa ke , kau lagykq nak crk2 pasal ,zaman bilaa ?
Lagi tak guna otak .
Klw jantan korang handsome ke apa ke , takpelaa jugak kan ,yg aku nak g tercarik-carik , or head over heels for . Bodoh sial .
Ade hati lagii nak cakap ehh aku stakat pomapn kuteyp and KORANGKORANG pehh JANTAN setakat interested dgn aku , stkt nak bwad pakai,nak badan ? HELLO , excuse me , nak bwad pakai ape ehh ? sentuh pon tydaykq , nak badan aku ? RELEKS SUDAA ,pompan , Laen kali , ade bukti baru lehh bbl , bkn bbl kosong , stkt nak ikot kan perasaan . BODOH . bebual tak guna kepala otak . taktaohh pe ape makna F R I E N D S . nak aku spell lagi besar jadi kau paham ?
Takde bukti step ade bukti . bukti apa yg kuat sangat korang pegang ? hahaaa .
Nak carik ? yewtee kecheykq je ? Okehhh ...((:
Nak gadoh pasal K O N E K , takde mase laaa .
Bkn aku peh taste ehhhh .
Aku pon malas nak ade kene mengene dgn CLAN2 korang nyh semua lagi .
Susaaahh wyy .

Tomorrow i have two plans .

First, will be accompanying haizel(: to his 2nd interview .

Da takle ade janggot ehh awak ? heee .shyaaan de lorhh .

Best of luck for the interview .

And secondly , jmp DF after dy finish work at 6 .

tapi dy senyap jeykq .. tak msg me .

Confirm step kerja , pastooh sebenarny tak kerja ehh .

tanak aku nagged arhh tooh pat dy ,

dats why dy keep mum ,kaaayn DF ?!

kau paitaoh kerja lagi kau siap , ni kali aku nagged pat telinga kau

sampai berdarahh !

Ouh did i tell you , yesterday someone surprised me at workplace ?

He really did and i was really shocked .

Mcm tak sangka sangka gytooh , that he will came down .

I can even feel my heartbeat thumping so fast , gosh he make me blushed :$

Awak laen kalyhh nak dtg blg kyte okehh ? (:

Sweet lurhh kahmu nyhh .

Too bad , cant chatted w him for too long as i was working and my manager was there too .

So it was just a hi-bye meeting , but atleast it cheers me up .

Thankyou , awak .

And someone have been silent and missing for four days already .

Do you know how much ive been missing you , and keep dreaming of you ?

It makes me feel like crying ...

Whenever i miss you , i'll look at this ring that i always wear on my finger ,

and tell myself to be strong ..

Only God knows how i feel , and how i always yearn to go back to those arms of yours ..

I have one wish that i believe in , please...

do come back,do come back,do come back , do come back do come back,do come back,do come back,do come back , do come back,do come back,do come back,do come back,do come back......

Cynthaaa tolong .

Gue sedang ~~menangis .~~

Dialah di Hati . . .

**************************************************************************

benci tapi ~~rindu~~

And after all this time ,

youre still the one i Love,

the only one i want for life ...

Prosperous Tiger .

2010-02-15T02:32:00.003+08:00

Another mundane day . I sitted at home the whole day today , sleeping .
Awwww thats the best feeling that i loooove to have , shiok siia ((:
Wokeup arnd 8.30 pm , dad bought 4 us the famous 'finger licking good' chicken , but i just manage to finish up one piece , while lil sista finish up 3 drumstick . pelahap siol tooh budak .

Then i played with babygirl , watched upin&ipin w her till she fall asleep ..
And i continued w my job hunting onlyne , now then im free to blog ..
Currently listening to sephia-S07 . mcm nice lurhh lyric dy , make me hum along to the song too ..

To all chinese citizen , a happy prosperous new year i wish tooh all of you ,
and to those who celebrated the valentine thingy , happy lover day ((:

Anw , yesterday i was on a date with my bestie glandyn ! after soooo long of not fcking meet-up w each other , and finally we did . he say , i look different . Mcm its not me ? hahaa .
Apaaaarrrrhhh . Glan said that i look like minah salleh sesat . lols . Ok whadeva u want to comment , maybe becos of my hair colour , but i dont care and i enjoyed my day yesterday w you !! hehhss .

He fetched me at my void deck and off we went to town to catch a movie at Lido w two of his other friends . We sneaked ljs food inside the cinema as i bring a big handbag , so lucky lorhhh cos the movie started in 30 mins time and its a bit rush if we want to have our dinner before the movie . confirm late cos i love to procrastinate when i eat , who loves to rush and gobble up their food tell me ? And so , we bought Perry Jackson ; the lightning thief . I tell you , gerek siia the movie !! i rate it 5/5 . i tot boring ya noe , cos i dont really favour fiction story , but the action and the hero melts me away ...hahaha . lalalalalaalaa ` teros mcm semangat gytooh to watch . and after movie , both of glan friends dont want to tag along w us , as we r heading to grandlink , so we departed .

Meet his other friends which is around 6 of them and we karakoed for 2 hours . Grandlink dalaaa pekak , sound system all down . I prefer cashbox but of course hi standard e pricing also quite high . But sekali sekala ok maahhh . I guess , glandyn enjoy his day by screaming and singing on top of his lung , atleast he can released his tension and stress about his girlfriend .. More patience is needed kayhh bestfrenn ? Dont worryh , if ur patience is running out , i'll come to the frame , and help you out ayye fishball ((:

Pictures were taken but with glan's hp . Upload it once i get the pictures from him .
Wrapped up and home sweet home .

Anw , i got this nice and baeeeykq pehh link utk korg .
to all thos TYPICALMATS` dedicated for you guys .
I just found this link helpful , check it out babes ;
www.typicalmatsays.blogspot.com

Selamat tidur kekasih gelapku ,
semoga cepat kau lupakan aku ..

Sehari bersama kahmu .

2010-02-13T14:30:00.005+08:00

Went out shopping to 313 somerset yesterday despite having fever still . And Thanx to SR for giving out the advance salary for the first time , which entitled me to shop like hell .
Ex accompanied me after work , while i met her straight from my crib .

Our meeting started off with loads of embroilment , and we stopped , and we continued again and the ritual continues till i feel useless picking up the bone over and over , so i bought a chocolate ice cream for my own self to cool down . And then we are back to normal . I know , my ex is very patience when it comes to handling me. But she do blow up to when i really get to her nerve . And anw , after all the arguments , she followed me shopping , chosing and recommended me the nice tops , find for me the shoes that i really want , and i really felt thankful to her . Thanx , bekasku . So i bought a few things for myself at forever 21& cotton on for my tops & bottoms , and charles& keith for my heels . And im really loving it .
Supposedly , the purpose of meeting , is to have cheesecake together since im craving for it for quite a time , but at the end of the day the feeling decreased and replaced by satisfaction of splurging my money on shopping my own wants . Atleast i feel good about something ((:

We had our late dinner at NaNa Thai Restaurant , and halfway of our meal , we had arguements that make both of us lost our appetite , but since its infront of our meal , we both respect and force the food to go down our throat . But i didnt managed to finish it . And anw , the arguement lasted both of us only at that period of time , and we went out of the restaurant brawling but in a joke manner , and we started of laughing again .

Then we off to taka garden where i insisted on both of us to go that place , so we can play taiti together . hahaaa . lame kaayn ?! Then we taiti-ing, race-ing , black jack-ing till 1 in the morning . We really had a good time and we were laughing our ass out like nobody business even thou i know people were like eyeing on us cos we are noisy but who cares ? Its not like everyday we get to meet up with each other , its an opportunity that i wont want to miss ayye . Then we had a heart warming talk , which has been a long time since i have those kind of feelings inside me . A good one , i should say .

So and so , we departed at about 230 in the morning , separate cab and off to our own destination .
Pictures were taken , but wont be uploaded , for some reason .

Thanx for the day , and i truly appreciate it so much , & thanks for e cute flower , ex gf ku . till we meet again .

As for today , i dont know where i wanna go , people were like bugging me asking me out , but im not sure wheteher should i or should i stay indoor . hmmmm ?

Curently e magnetism towards this song is really strong , cos the lyrics is friggin nice , and the music soothes my heart . Awwwww , it keeps me melting over and over .. By Siti NurHaliza & Kris Dayanti their new albun ; CTKD .

LET IT GO ..

2010-02-09T20:08:00.001+08:00

“Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it’s not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn’t give up on them.”

I decided to publicize my blog , for the meantime .
Thankyou .

Am i feeling happy , no ?

2010-02-09T19:50:00.003+08:00

i feel like im getting chubbier .
-.-

Stayed indoor for about 3 days straight , and before that , i didnt even stray nor going back home late . Im acting like a good girls ought to behave (: I fell sick again . Tomorrow im going back to work . And this week schedule was pathetic and worst than ever . only 2 days of working ; Wed & Thurs ONLY . It can never turn out worst than that .

Life has been pretty much mundane than ever ; e reason why this blog is being abandoned .

So cold without him .

2010-01-25T15:46:00.005+08:00

Was admitted to Alexandra Hospital for one day due to some stomach problem that im having .

Doctor said maybe it because of mild infection or stomach flu .. wild guess huh ? they didnt even do any x-ray on me , and can give me this kind of assumption . They injected two packs of drip , and stuff me with all those medication ,but still ,it never works . Makenn saket perot lagykq ade . At last i gave up , and ask to be discharged . Till now , im having stomach cramp , but its nort like the normal menstrual cramp , worst than that . So now , i dont have any idea , what sickness im having . I was referred to the surgeon for my next appointment , hopefully they can figure it out . Its like every day , i have to bear with this stomach cramp , worst when it attacks me at workplace . And everytime it happened , i was asked to go back home . grrrrrrrr -.- Now im on mc for three days . Boringness at home , with nothing to do . Ishhhh . Swear aku bosan .

Put that aside , went party-ing with apit and cine on wednesday to butter factory . Ouhhhhh , it was an awesome-ness ! after quite some time i didnt went to club , finally , i really did enjoy myself =)) Even though its only the three of us , sume kechorable gilaaa , and e talkative one of coz its me laaaa , teehee . We play one game but i forgot the name of it , of which whoever lose he/she have to drink .. ok game nyhh aku bodoh , selalu kalah, and im the one who finish up all the drink . gongg sangat sangat. hahaa . luckily liquor soo tak mabokkq laaa . but the game its cool , doraang sengaja die2 want me to lose . lols. we party till 3 am thennn slack , sleep , first bus then go back home =)) well , thanx guys for making me happy , appreciate it soo muchh .

And i miss youu too muchh till i fall sick ...
I dreamt of you each & everyday ..
Where are you , where you gone missing ?
What wrong have I done till you leave me this way ?
You used to be the sunshine , making me laugh with all the cute msges & stuff ,
and now you barely recognise me as a fren anymore ..

I used to wait for you. Days would go by before I got a text or a hello, but I was so elated to finally hear from you that I ignored all the signs. I forgot that I deserve better. I forgot that I actually need someone who’s going to uplift and adore me, worship me, love me completely, just as I loved you. But I’ll never get that from you ..

CRANKY

2010-01-14T00:33:00.003+08:00

AKU RINDUUUUU KAHMUUUUU
-.-

Shiattss .

Kaaayn sekaraaaang jadi KAWAN KUTEYP pulaaayq .

That's why they NEVER BOTHER .

Im down , not in d mood for ranting .

Random .

2010-01-14T00:07:00.001+08:00

crush

2010-01-05T05:52:00.001+08:00

First and foremost , HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE !
Its 2010 babybehhh ...... A new chapter , a new year ....
So FCUK the PAST and say HELLO to the FUTURE ahead of you .....
Yeahhh babeyhh ! Its tiime for tooh move on with my life ....

Im down with fever , flu & sore throat .
Goshh its really killing me siiaa ...
My voice really hoarse & uneven .

And its started 3 days ago when i was at my workplace .
It started when i got my gastric contraction , then followed by the flu and at night trosssss demam . It was all of a sudden . And now , i still feel weak despite still having to go to work , later on . hmmpppfttt.
How i wished i could take up another leave. malaaaaaaaas siiiiia naykq g keje ! ~~
seriiious shitt punyaaa .

Went tooh dbLo for countdown with my girlfriend ;nells .
Love her alott ! she's migratiiiiiinnnnnnnnng sooooon ,and im surelyy gonna miss her effing much ! sheeessshh . 22/01/10 . lagi brp ari je siiia kau nak g ausiie . I'll promise i'l buy for you the mug with the picture of us kayhhh sayaaangs ? =) muaccks ! lovelove *

And you know whad , i sneaked out from house yesterday at 3am in the morning .
Went slacking with baby bone , naz & dino . I was really damn fcking bored at home when i received msg from baby bone .

bby bone : manaa ?
bby hur : rumaaa .
bby bone : apaa bikin ?
bby hur : watching onlyne moviiie . why ?
bby bone : kol bby bone jap .

10 mins later , a red car was ready to fetch me . ahaaa .
bagaikan puteri . lols .

We went jalan bahar , they went tooh cemetery . Luckily this tymee round baby bone is the one who drived . When the first time they surprised me by going to the cemetery at 3 in the morning , we were all on bikes , of course im the pillion laaaa kaaayn . And i really cried behind the black visor. I closed my eyes , taykq tgk kiri kanan punyaa ,and gripped bear tightly . Kene maki berbakul siol dgn baby bone , pasal penakot sangat .. And i didnt move from my seat when we arrived . That was my first time going to cemetery at wee hours . gilaaa ny budaykq2 taykqde keje agakny ! So the second tyme ,luckily we take car , so bareng tutop muka je arhhh. hahaaa . After that went tooh lim chu kang near the police coast guard there , tengok orang pancing ikaan ... slacked there , even though it was very chilling lagi2 tgh demam , but gua still steady je ...... hahaaaa .
Time checked it was 4.40am .
Dino ny idea gilaaa , ajak gy mynommmm .
Errrrrrrr .....
I was like koraaaang naykq mynom , mynommm arrhhh , baby akeyyt lagipon taykq mynom beer . Cheyy step peng storiii jee member . padahal tanaak mabok . Reached bukit batok , slacked at coffeshop , dino bukaayq 3 tiger beer , 3 stout . And he bought for me 3 bottles of long island tea . As u all noe , im not good in holding drinks . Be it liquor or beer . My daraaah very weak y .... Mynomm peyhh mynomm peyhh mynommm, i am the first one who put up the white flag . And i cnt recalled back whad happened after that ..... Gua da mcm merlion siol .. haha pagi2 butaa kol 6 lebeh pagi . People are going to work , first day of school , and there i was , kat bwh block , muntah pegi muntah alek.. Got 2 abg cd and 1 bouncer st james yang sudi tolong . hahaaa .
I overheard doraang lyk ckp , ' si budaaaaykq kecyq nyhh eyhhh , kecohh arhh pagiii . '
they hailed a cab and sent me home straight and that was around 7 plus .

I texted baby bone around 4 plus , and apologised for troubling his brother & him for whadeva had happened when i was drunked . Then he asked me tooh called him . And we chatted quite long since i didnt online in msn . "Minah lu kecoooyh arhhh , nasebb baeykq tak kene tinggal lagik taw dgn kyteoraang . Ikoytkaayn hatii mcm nak tinggalkan baby je pat sanerhhh " lols . Adaa sejarahh behind kene tinggal nyhh sumaa... madang mukaaa nyh aseykq kene tinggal je... mangkok y ...

So today , ade orang tooh kene serve dy perhh reservist for the first tymeee .
Mati2 naykq keng . apaaarhh cakap , ader oytaakq taykq pk agakny .
Padahal stkat dua hariii jeykq, tooh pon tak stay-in .
So i make a deal with him .
If you go for your reservist , i'll buy you one big ferrero rocher .
And he was like , kk deal ! cheyy manjaa siol . part2 ckp gnykq baru tahu naykq gerak .
laooo taykq dlm kepala otaak , " bby bone nak awol ahh , nak awol nak awol "
GUNDU !
You make up to your promises , and i'll make up to my words kayhh smallboy ? =)
ANd and , i ask him to pierce for me kaaayt bwh bibir to the left side . he said , ouhkay .
taykq sabar ny ! hahaaa . naykq tyndik naykq tyndik ! waa tunggu eyhhh baby bone !

Nyhh oraang yang nak keng reservist dy .
Manjaa perhh smallboy ! Happy reservist ORH !suweeeett kaayn mukaaa dy ?=)

Im having my gastric pain , right now .

It SUCKSSSSS .

Blog agaaain soon , people .

Love*

St James , Zirca & Rebel . Wednesday Nite .

COUNTDOWN . Girlfriend is LOVE .DIDI =))

Falling off the cliff .

2009-12-29T07:07:00.003+08:00

I just came back at 6am in the morning just now . And now , im still awake , siting infront of the screen , with my mind all twisted and distorted . How am I supposed to describe ?It is perplexed .

I don't wish to have dis kind of feelings ya noe .. and now , whenever i look at that person , i tend to be soooo speechless and dumbfounded . I didnt even be the real me , the usual me tthat tends to talk alot , and stuff . I don't know whad kind of superpower that he holds till i become like this . I think one reason for sure , is that , im the type of perosn that wont get easily hooked up into sumone , but when i tend to have feelings for the other party , i tend to be super quiet , n wheneva im w that person , i turn awkward , shy , dumbfounded. Ishhhh , you know , when you gt this feelings , it is super irritating and you feel like , ouhh i cnt act any much longer . I have to stop . But i dont know what to do .. I dont want to lose that person , even as a frennn ... I have to stop having this stupid feelings towards you , and i wanna be like normal , the way I am before .. Its like , between you & me its far too different . Maybe there are alot more girls that is compatible to be with you , rather than me .. But , too bad i cant tell you how i feel towards you .. i dont want this to spoil our newly built friendship , cos i want you to be my fren ,even i know you dont have the same thing as whad im having right now ...

Its bizarre , its been 3 months of being single , and i rejected alot of guys ,tat wanted soo muchh to be with me , but i dont understand why , when i see you , this feelings mutually comes and hijack my heart ,to fall in love again ... i know its love cos i do feel hurt when u pay no attention to me .... awwwchhh , i feel totally sad & down =( But still , i have to act as per normal ...

Im strong tooh face all this .... i have tooh do it .. and i cried yesterday , because i cant tell you how much stronger my feelings towards you .. But in the end , i lied to you saying it was about my past ... hmmmmm. I lied to you & i lied to myself , i dont understand this feelings ...

I just wanna thank-you , for being a good friend towards , me .

y o u .

2009-12-28T09:19:00.005+08:00

Im keeping this to myself . Even when i chat with you , it gave me butterfly in my stomach .

Whad should i name this feeling ? You gave me the strength to move on with my love life ,and forget the past , even when you didnt tell me to do so . whenever my heart look at you , i told myself that i can do it . I know , it is a one sided feeling , but atleast i know , i still have the feelings of love and to be loved . Thank god my heart didnt die from loving someone . It still beating , beating for love .

But i dunno ,among those people, why must be you ? when i have rejected tons ?

when meeting you was never an intention .

My first look to you was an accident , while the subsequent one , was intentional .

why am I feeling this way ?

goshhh .

It hurts when you know , the other party didnt have the same feeling as yours .

And i really have those feelings for you , I Swear .

Another Day .

2009-12-28T03:32:00.004+08:00

God granted me another day to live my life , enjoy every moment that passed , to laugh , to smile , to appreciate every single thing , to be surrounded with great people in my life . For that , i thank you for giving me another chance to breathe and to live in you world .

Ive alot of out-dated pictures to update here , but kerna udaa terlalu banyak , i'll just update and upload the important ones kayhh ?((=

Im still having the symptoms of hangover due to yesterday madness .
Reached home near to 7 in the morning , slept for awhile till noon , wokeup and get ready for work . And just so you know , the feelings is sooo frigging not nice siia . I can still taste the taste of beer on my tongue , i feel like puking but i dont know why am i holding it backkk ~
padaan mukaa masehh terngiang-ngiang rasa dy . kaayn sapaa suro takq kuaat hold mynom ? hehhs lol . Ouhh yaa , went drinking with bear , baby bone , alip at bukit batok . thaaanx tooh bear for treating us .. hehhhss ! yeahh , baby dari taykq mynomm beer , dhenn tagak jugak tooh air kencing setan . huahuahuahuahua~ at last , terlentang pat playground ..maut pahhh .
Nanaaaykq mynoom beer agyhh arhhh gnykkq . cheyy mcm paham je nyhh part .

Ouhh yeaaah , not forgetting , the tanjung pinang trip was due . I really had fun during my trip there , cuma saaayaaang nyaa taaykq dapat shopping banyaak2 . hmmphftt =( tooh pat bosan siol . I visited the orphanage home , and i cried when i see those adorable kids without having parents pada usia yang muda . while im having alot of privileges , advantages from my parents but i never learnt to be appreciative nor be responsible towards my duty as a child , student and _______* . Guess im not a filial daughter compare to other childrens towards their parents . Hmmm , when is the time that i will really change ? Im wondering *

Currently chatting with my baby nells and baby bone .
Baby bone sent me vids , and it keeps me entertain as im fcking damn bored right now .
While baby nells , complain tooh me about beingg soo fcking bored , TAKDA MATAER !
aaahh seyhh , i feel the same way tooh ! 3 bulan eyhh single , sial laaaa mendak ny .... aiyoo !
calon pon tayqde ape lagi nak ade matae kaayn , taaaaykq dapat arh ! yelaaah sapaa kaaaayn aku nyhh , tol taykq tol ?-.- Well , pardon me for ranting craps hereee , as im way fcking bored.. time checked its 5.50am . and i havent sleep yet .

And anw , i dunno why today i felt different when it comes to chat with you . You know , i always looking forward to chat with you , but i dunno why today , i felt awkward , shy and dumbfounded tooh . Why ? Im speechless , i wanted sooo muccchh to chat with you ,like i always do ... but entah eyhh , i found you different today , or maybe its me ? i dunno .
Can i break down , can I ? please .

I guess i know the reason why , cos i feel FCKING DAMN LONELY . I NEED A COMPANION .
where should i find it , bloddy damn it ?!

'Gua daa tayqde mood . Sorry if this recent most may sound cranky and unlogical .
Cos the author is not thinking properly . I need to go for now , BYE .

Yesterday pichaas taken at bukit batok while slacking & drinking .

he got that 'unique atittude'

alip&bear

si manis tersenuyum =))

dhaniel =))

henderson wave with bestie glandyn .

slacking at limbang park ; wee hours .

New friends

2009-12-24T05:17:00.004+08:00

I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN ,

CAAAYYYYYN ?? ((:

Like a new person ,i regain the strength of bringing myself up, when i got to know you ..

You are special in your own way , you are unique with your own style , you attract me with your cuteness ..

Goshh , you are soooo adorable ..

Meeting you was never an intention ,

everything happens unexpectedly ..

While all this things were prepared long time before we were born ,

and meeting you was one of the most beautiful things that happen in my life .

I just hope that this friendship wont comes tooh an end , for i will pray it will stay this way , till forever ..

Insya - Allah .

You guys , ROCKS baby's world , ouhkayyy !

LoveLOVE**

its time for me to go

2009-12-14T02:41:00.005+08:00

Well oh well where exactly should i start ?
I mean there's alot of things happening in my life , be it good or bad . MOSTLY the bad part .
And always i'll be having this kind of feelings ; feeling down and being at the lowest part of my life .

Skip the climax ,we shall continue with all the good things instead ...
basically , im missing alot of people ! and ive been wanting tooh meet alot of friends , be it old frens or new frenns ! and , if i have to write it down , i shall have a long list on who to meet first , and the list will continue .... (= I have few new frenns that came along in my life , and brought smile and laughter in my daily essence . to all , thankyou for being my friend , and thankyou for cheering me up when im down , it was greatly appreciated .

To ;
Fyy Kentot
Glandyn fishBALL
Muhd Noh
Abdul Syahid
Fahmi Danial
SugarDaddy Yot
Amirul Iskandar Ariola

FOR TEXTING ME EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL . YOUR MSGES ATLEAST BRING A SMILE TO MY FACE & BRIGHTENS UP MY DAY . THANKYOU SOO MUCHH . FOR NOW , ALL I NEED IS JUST SUPPORT FROM YOU GUYS . WITHOUT YOU GUYS HELPING ME , IM NOWHERE TO BE FOUND .

Last wednesday , went tooh DBLO with my fishyBALL and his close buddy , Azmi . The initial planned was to go st james , and meet my kakayq ayu there . But due to unforeseen circumstance , we changed our plan . Off we went tooh DBLO . Luckily , it was ladies night , and ouh sidetracykq jap eyhh . dblo girls nite now is on wednesday no more on thursday . Entry on thursday will cost $10 all night long for ladies , meanwhile wednesday ladies get free entry ((=
But , thursday night much more power if we were to compare on wednesday . Banyaykkkq cinonehh gilaaa siiiiaaa . And And , lagu2 dy semua mostly house music . puas atyhh go st james siiaa ! mixing lagyhhkq power eyhh dj kzee ?! (= lol . k part nyhh da merepeykq k da lame . haaa . But serious shiiiiaaayyyt . I reallly super duper enjoy myself siiia ! taykq pernaaa pernaaa go club se-enjoy nyhh mcm ! Anw i drank alot . K we start off with a jaggaBomb each , and a jug of bombay sapphire plus cranberry vodka , and 2 glasess of tequila shot . Semua drag ! taaayq penaa2 penaayhh eyhh ! haaa . baeykq2 taynakykq maboykq , aftaaa club tros gone . naseb ade dua hero tolonggg . ehehhs salaaa , satu hero yg banyak layaaankaaayn , thankyou ouhkay besterestest freeen ? :)

outside powerhouse.

dalaaaym cab otw dbLO
One's a company two's a crowd three's a partyyyy (=

bestest frennn sent me home the next day , thou we are still hangover . thankyouuu sooo muchh k =) home sweet home at 1pm and i slept till the evening . Dhennn malaaaym around nyneee went out to jb accompanied someone to buy ciggie , isi minyaaaykq and stuff , blablablaaa... reached singapore and slacked at jurong before proceeded tooh boonlay place to have our delicious supper ! time-check ; it was 4 in tha morning . Reached home at 5am . And due tooh someone's dengki kaaayn , i was locked outside my crib till 645am , that was the time when my brother get ready for work , he pass me the key to enter the house , and taykq banyak hegeh bogeyh ny , tros tydoo sampai 12 noon ! And when i told FYY about this , she ketawaaakaaayn seyhh ! taaayqk baeykq , nanaykq love eyhh ?! majoykkkq with youu , taw ?! hmmmphhhft (:

Yesterday , ton-ed with bestest freennn near my crib . We drank , 2 bottles of long island tea each . But dun worryh , of course we didnt drunkq laaa kaaayn =) atlaaast at nearly 4 in tha morning dua2 nantyoykkqqq and knock off . haaaa . macaaam pahaaaym jeykkqqq naak ton . ton tooh melepak maknany taaaykq tydooo ok awaykq ? =) oraaang tooh belyh handphone aroooo , sorryh didnt get tooh take piccchaaa with your new camera , maybe next tym ouhkayyy ? promisssh *

Anw, i find this video very very very hilarious ! its A MUST to watchh ouhkayy ?! He's a malay and he's damn fcking good doing standup comedy . Well , he's a boxer anw . To those who have not watch it , you wont get bored ! i swear =)

Well , I'LL BE PRIVATING MY BLOG SOON ! SO TO THOSE WHO WANTS ME TO INVITE THEM , PLS LEAVE YOUR EMAIL ON MY TAGBOARD . THANKYOUUU =)

For , i need to moveon wiith my life right now . There's no use of holding back on things that we know , we wont get back . No point of waiting , no point of staying , and no point of hoping .... mimpi di siang haryhh enggaykq pernaaa menjadi kenyataaan , itu hakikat yang amat perit utk diterima .

And to whom it may be concern , all the best in your new relationship .. I just hope for your happiness , thats all . Im happy if you feel the same way too ... I wont interfere any longer . The truth has revealed itself . Thankyouuu soo muchh , for lying . Its painful , but that's life . It will never be fair . Just a reminder , you will never be on the top forever , as the wheel will rotate and definitely you'll be on the bottom too , like how you are putting me throu .

Im smiling but inside im dying ....... NO MORE YOU .

2009-12-07T01:38:00.009+08:00

Heyloo beylooo earthlings =)
Anw , i will constantly apologise to my readers , for not been updating my blog regularly .
Due tooh sickening reasons , i will only update my blog once or twice a week , worst will be none at all . hehhhs =)
So im really , really really sorry for that , ouhkayy ? (:

Well , as usual , everyday's a new day , and every single day , there are new things happening around my life . Basically , there are alot of stories to share here , tons of it . But im just blank on which part to tell , or not to tell , or simple saying which part is important and which is redundant . do you get wad i mean ? haaa , k dis part im lamee already . lol .

Well , there is a saying that pictures speaks louder than a thousand words .
So , im gonna present the overdue picx that i took with fishBALL on our meeting ; 02/12/09 .
On the previous post , i had stated that i went cwp tooh watch Ninja Asassin with him . =)

Well , thankyou my friend for always being there for me ,always lending me your two pairs of ears . I appreciate everything , thankyouu so much Muhammad Glandyn =)

03/12/09 ; was the day that i never enjoy most .

The whole idea was to go club and enjoy myself , but eventually when you tend to plan something , it will not turn as good as u expected it to be . It usually happens tooh me, all the time .. So i really didnt enjoy my night at all , as i bumped into ex girlfy , and we had a tiff . Commotions happened and its inevitable , so let it be ... When i kept remembering of it , i felt that i shouldnt be there that night , and shouldnt see her , or talk with her , as i know it will only hurt me more and more . Just go and die with your fcuker slutty BITCH , ouhk . Youre just making use of me , my feelings ,giving me stupid false hopes of yours , and promises in the dark , thats all . Im hurt , way tooo hurt by your attitude . . I deserve better than this .

Thanks kila for accompanying , and im sorry that i have to leave you all alone ...=(

promise i wont do that again ouhkay ? wateva it is , i love you soo muchhh =))

KilaBella my love =)

Raffles City toilet , hehhs . Vain US.

Kila & Ayu

Three ladies at DbLo =))

Ayu & hubby

Met glandyn for awhile the following day , as he need to pass me my house key that i left in his car . We proceeded to yewtee point as he wanted to eat , so we headed to LJS. after our meal , we walked and passed by this one shop . And guess whad i saw ? A mickey mouse cap ! Im so really into it , and yeahh mind you guys , im a big lover of mickey-minnie fan ! hehhs . So my bestie love glandyn , bought for me the cap.....awwwww, thankyouuu so muchh ! he even chose for me the colour , and im really loving it ! thankyou sooo muchh awaykq ! =) And thenn , we went off to my crib tooh take my wallet and off we went to cwp again , as i need to find materials to read . Someone pissed me off , giving me unlogical reason , for unable to turnup and meet me . Fcuk you , i swear , i'll screw you tooh death . If only singapore haf no rules , you'll be the first person to die in my hand , no-uh , secondd . You know the first one is who . Mengamoykq sejap kat library samapi lempar handphone , naseybb baeykq fishBall sabar w my attitude , hehhs =)sorryh kayhh awaykq ? next tyme kitaa mengamoykq lagi rabaykq laykq ! wait k .

Well , it has been a long post for today , i need toooh upload and updates alot of pictureees, but im toooh tired .Need tooh catch my beautiful sleep for now . kateyl daaa memanggil nyhhh~~~~~ And anw , maybe next week fri till sun imma out of country . Will miss alot of peeps in singapore...well , tiga hari jeykq kaaayn .. hehhhs . Kk , naykq bobok for now . Update soon ! Toodles ~

not forgetting , FYY KENTOT SAYA RYNDU KAHMU LORH ! ((=

o u y d e e n i .

2009-12-03T02:36:00.003+08:00

Holaa bad girls !
Im done with my wednesday , and so say HELLO to thursday ((=
DbLO , here i come ..........

Watched Ninja Asassin with fishBall in the evening .
While the first planned was to slack around my area , but due to last min plan , went to cwp to return my library books . As i was finding my material , the 'watching movie thought' strikes my mind . So i was like , " eyhh fishBall yok tgk wayang?! naykq ?! " den he was like , ouh ouhkay , since we haf ample of time left .. so from civic we went to cwp and dat was around 735pm ,luckily we get to catch the movie that started at 745pm . so w/o procrastinating , off we straight into the cinema . It was cool ..... i mean the movie . It was full of action packed and i was fidgeting all the way ... fishBALL was shivering due to the coldness . tooh laa sapaa suroh kurus sgt takde fat , tgk kaayn da kesejukaan ! apelaarr awaykq nyhh !! =p
But seriously , the storyline was amazingly superb fantastic! i rated it 9/10 ! serious , you guys have to watch it , it is much much much more better than new moon , ouhkay ?!

Heyy i will update all the pichaas when im free yaaa ?
i have tooh get my sleeping session NOW !
tomorrow kerjaaaa , malaaam partyyyyyy !
=p
Nitey nites earthlings !

there was once a little girl who never knew LOVE ,

until someone broke her heart .

just another day .

2009-12-02T00:48:00.010+08:00

Another week had past .
The start of the new month , and soon will be the end of the year , really soon .
Today marks the date of 2nd december . Anybody reckon this date ?
Well , today was not really a good start for me .
Starting off by waking up late tooh work , i messed up everything at work as i let my body moves but my mind is wandering somewhere else .
And i get fcuked up by my manager .
I really had no mood to work for today , making me feel like to leave my workplace , really soon . I dont have the heart to continue working there , not because of the colleagues nor the managment nor the environment , but its just ME .
i just cant cope with my life ,and everything that is happening inside it .

Skipped all those redundant stuff , and let me talk about my daily spit of what had happened for the past one week .

FRIDAY .
Shafiie fetched me up from work and off we go tooh spize to haf our late dinner , after bloating up our stomach with delicious food , we went back tooh cathay tooh catch NEW MOON ((=
of course , its my choice after all . The movie that i really wanted tooh watch soo badly .
And anw , the storyline was slow , and it really follow the plot from the book itself , of course it has no ending , it was hanging . That was the boring part i should say .. well , as we know it has its sequel , so yeahh , keep on reading to know the ending part of the twillight saga ((=
edward cullen really melt my heart away ...... *sheeessssh* grinnnnnniiiiiing widelyyyyyyyyy*
After movie , we went tooh clarkequay to chill around and slack till 5 , and he sent me home till doorstep . thankyouu , much appreciated . (:
Sorry for the absent of pictures . lol .

SATURDAY.
my fishBALL fetched me from work , and off we went tooh cineleisure just to kill the time . Bumped into my bro dhilly unexpectedly , gosshhhh i miss him terribly . 8 dec yaa bro .. time for you to serve the nation . all the best bro , you know i love you k ? ((:
Since we are so damn bored , fishBALL and me camwhoring just for funn . heeee , yes that smallboy never loves to smile for the cameraa . Awaykq pk senyum awaykq tooh mahal sgt eyhh ?! hahaaa , pelokeykq ny utuykq ! So after that , we went tooh spize again tooh haf out late nite supper ! i had maggie pattaya while he had his chicken chop . his chicken was really full of ONION ! And it didnt seems like chicken chop at all , more to onion chop i should say ... hehhs . padan mukaa awayka eyhh ! haha . muloyt bau bawaaaang ny olaaang , utuykqq ! after supper , cabb-ed tooh boat quay , drinked , chilled while sharing both of our problems together . thankgod , i found a special friend like you . I appreciate that . thankyou , for always being there for me , friend ... I look very sleepy and shagged at around 4am , fishBALL sent me back home tooh yew tee , before he went back to his crib . jauhkaayn awaykq .. awaykq nii buang duet je eyhh .. hmm . thankyouu soo muchh ouhkayy ? and stopiit abt muka utuykq kita , tydoo dlm cab ! awykq tooh jealous sebenany ! hahaaaaa . blueykq blueykq ! And i really enjoyed my day , i had funnn .

GlanDyn Feat Hur .

SPIZE ; Maggie pattaya & ONION Chop !

SUNDAY.
Guees what ? I met ex gf . yes , i really did met her , for no reason for no purpose . She fetched me from workyq and initially we tot of slacking at ecp but last min plan , she came over my crib and overnite for just one day .. haaaisshhh . I know i never want to treat her well , because i know , she will tend to hurt me more , if i treat her super uberr duper nice . I'll just stick with my ego even that means that i have to live indenial , lying about my feelings and everything ... I know she's happy even without me anymore... all the best tooh you . I just cant help breaking down when its time for us to be apart, cos i know , i dont know when we can meet again , or maybe when the time come , you have moveon ,with someone new again ? i don't know .. Yes , im a sweet pretender ,tyring to deny everything , pretending to laugh, carving a fake smile while deep down inside im crying , because of you ... its been a month plus since we separated , but im just a little too not over you ... I know you have forgotten today's date , supposed tooh be our 14 monthsary , but everything went down the drain .. I guess for now , the imprtant things in ur life is your drinking addiction , your work friends , your prawning , your night life , your freedom , your everything ... but just not me . I pray to god that you will die .. Yes im cruel , but youre much more vicious than me . I want you die ,not to live even for one more day .. So i will stop loving you , i will stop going crazy for you , i will stop my obsession towards you .. If killing is not a crime , i want you to die in my hand .. Yes , i may sound sadist and psychotic , but you turn a good girl , bad . And i put the blame on you ..Even how many words i speakup , i just cant deny this fcking feeling ... damn . I need a cure for this , illness .

Even though you're gone ,

i wont let you fade away ..

nerver fade away , never fade away ..

I’m not letting anyone in anymore. Everyone that had I let in in the past, all left without saying goodbye, and taking a piece of me with them, then throwing it away, abandoning it all by itself. If anyone happens to find a missing piece of heart, will you return it to me?

Drama , love & relationship

2009-11-25T13:15:00.011+08:00

Alot of thing had happened in the past one week which i dont own the time to update my dusty&dull blog . pardon me for that .

Well , life has been more complicated these days .. living in perfect denial , and disguising myself into someone which im not , before . Im totally lost in this world of mine , and i have no idea whad is the next step for me tooh do in the future ... shit .

Parents are away in jb leaving my bro and me , foodless at home . And not forgetting leaving the load of house-chores for me tooh do . While today im enjoying my liberty , i dont have e exact idea where i want to go , who i want to meet and what i want to do .

Initially , i asked wawa to accompany me to find a new job and maybe walk around town and stuff. But last min plan , she have a few errands to run , so im stuck here at home while waiting for her to return arnd late-afternoon . Few people ask me out today , but i just don't know with who i wanna go out with . I need to pass abg karl his memory card , and at the same time happy pill ask me tooh meet him at 5 after he's done with his examination . Ain ask me to come down to her house and meet baby adriana . And wawa wants to meet me arnd 5 plus after her project meeting . So how how ?? siaaaannn ahhh .

Martini ' s boy is acting weirdly this past few days . I don t understand what's on his mind . Its like i've been explaining tooh you countless time that i cnt afford to have any commitment for now , while you keep on pestering me about the same thing repeatedly . Desperate sgt naaykq matae , carik pompan laen ahh , im NOT READY AT ALL ok ? get it ?
And to whoevaa jugak laaa , happy pill also . Aku naeykq fed-up . And FYI , for now RELATIONSHIP is not in my dictionary of life . Its just a pain in my ass . So fcuk off don't talk to me abt this mushy mushy thing . Y U C K S !

anw , i get to know one of this guy , he got the same face like my abg apul ! and they're both the same age , same birthday month , same hometown , same nickname but the only diffrence is that , one drive , and the other one ride . haaah ! . Swee ahh . Abg apul serious , kau kene tenoykq gambaa kembar kau tooh ! haha . muncung pon samaaa abang !

Sy rynduu awk laaaa ..
kalau awk sentiasa membaca blog sy , sy rasa awk tao siapa awk sbny ...
you know , bila teringat ingat balek kenangan lama , makes me want to be with you ..
But sadly , you've totally changed .And im totally dissapointed...
Daaa mcm bukan N_____ H____ yg sy kenal dulu .
haiisshhh .
Im still not totally being independent . There are some other things that i cnt do by myself ,
or i miss doing it with you ... Swear , i miss you .
please , come .

Ku Menanti.
Dulu dikau pernah berkata
Aku lah yang pertama dan jua akhirnya
Namun itu semua sementara
Untuk membuat ku semakin sayang padamu
Sayang mengapa ini terjadi
Aku tak sanggup lagi 'tuk menghadapi

Kini kau pergi tanpa pesan
Aku yang merindu akan dirimu
Apa salah dan dosa ku
Hingga kau sanggup untuk meninggal kan ku

Sayang hatimu di hatiku
Sayang dua jiwa jadi satu
Sayang dirimu dan diriku
Telah menempuhi liku hidup ini ...

Pichaaas time ((:

NYP watching theatre -TERASA

LoveBirdsBestie Luk .

Ct , hur && Eysha
Besti Eyshaa.Sayaaang adykq Syabil.

Slugging at Marsiling
20/11/09 Friday .

Cousin's wedding on Sunday , Tampines .

She will remain forever in my life .

MARINA BARRAGE ((=

a date with girlfriend

2009-11-18T12:52:00.004+08:00

I enjoy liberty during my off peak period from workq .
Yesterday i went out early in the morning to have breakfast with martini's boy at cwp ,
and then sent him off tooh his workplace at jurong division and off i went meeting my babygirl .
I swear i didnt have enough rest .I Slept at 5am , wokeup at 9am and went out arnd 10 plus in the morning , till 1030 at night . I swear , my body feels really lethargic . I was exhausted by thennn . But , on a brighter note , i really did enjoyed myself soo muchh , with babygirl ! hehhhs .
Thankyouu love ,for accompanying me even thou you got alot of dates tooh attend , but you chose me ! hehhs , how sweet of you , ily ((:

First we went tooh IMM tooh have our lunch @ spagettitoo den tot of heading westmall tooh catch a movie , but thennn , we stop by COTTON ON just tooh shop ! hahhhs . I shop till i drop babe ! Its been a long time i didnt get tooh pamper myself with all sorts of girls thing . Then after buying all my necessary needs , off we go tooh jurong point tooh catch a movie . By then it was 1930 . I wanna watch 2012 but she'd watched before me , and i'd watched paranormal activity , so last resort we just bought Merantau Warrior . I don't have any idea what movie are we watching , but i can say its a good movie afterall . Daaa bopiaaan tayqde cerita geyrekq . takkan naykq tgk astroboy pulaykq kaaayn ?! Despite having arguements and cat-fight with her , i still enjoyed myself soo much with her accompanying me . And she said to me : "Selama tiga tahun aku matae dgn han , nyh first time aku tgk wayang dgn orang laen selaen han " ((:
I was so touched upon hearing that . Sayaaaaang jugaykq kau pat aku eyhh , my 10 days sishhtaa ?! aku tawuuuuu .((= We had alot of jokes to crack about , i laughed till i cried . Its like yesterday was OUR day , and im totally loving it .

So today's plan ? hmmmmmmmmmm ...
Im not sure yet whad i wanna do .
The obvious thing is that , i NEED to do the HOUSE CHORES .
They're coming backq today , so i will get fcuk upside-down if i didnt clean the house .
Malas sial .
Happy pill ask me out , today .
Will see first ouhkay , dear ?

I need to go .
Tomorrow im working , and someone will drop by tooh pass me my things .
Thankyouu , i hope you wont paitaoooo 's .
Imytooo , tyqcaaaaaaaaare .

ILYSM, Icha .

tONIGHT'S A GOODNIGHT

2009-11-16T02:34:00.010+08:00

Alhamdulillah , everything went on smoothly for the graduation ceremony just now ...

And now , i have hold a diploma in my hand , with the support of beloved family and friends .

Thank you Allah for your Guidance .

Someone paitaoh 's .I hate it when ppl cancelled last minute plan . im so pissed off and fcuked up . Sukati laaa eyhhh , boleyhh kasii aku so many LAME reason , but i know what are you up tooh . Your girlfriend , your beloved friend , and yourself . a W tooh you ouhkayy ?

Headed down tooh tampines and met juf . Then from they we bus-ed down taking 10 tooh vivocity . The journey took nearly an hour , and i was all e way fidgeting ...
Luckily , mr happy pill makes me laugh the way throughout the journey ... Listening tooh his story is like making an auto-biography for himself ((=

Reached vivo , bought some light snack and off we go tooh the rooftop tooh chill and of course , camwhoriing ! hehhhs . Im totally loving it .

We had a confession session just now . Thankyouuu soo muchh ((=

I appreciate your feelings dear..

but i haven't yet got over someone ... i can't cheat my own feelings ='(

We take it slow ouhkayy ?? As for now , its still early .

I nakyq tydoooo .

Goodnight , dear .

this is it .

2009-11-15T02:56:00.002+08:00

I hope tomorrows event will go on smoothly .... pls .

Feeling quite nervous for whatever circumstance that will happen later on .

Ya Allah , tolong laaa hamba mu ini .

Anw , i still didnt get the chance tooh watch 2012 !!!! Grrrr damn it !

Supposedly , it was on friday with aniq . But all the tix were sold out on that evening .

So i accompanied my dad to his annual dinner at bukit batok clubhouse ,since his wife didnt want to go , so i tagged him as im rotting bored at home .

Reached home around 11 plus , onlined for a while and talked on the phone with this cute lil boy from 1am till 6am . its like been 4 days straight we're talking on the phone non-stop . till i dunno what we are crapping about . but i love it . he always make my day , thankyouuu ((=

Im late for work just now . supposedly i starts at 11am but i came in one hour later . -.-

im a superstaaaar , you seee ?

then i had a bad gastric . my face look really cramped and pale . Maybe because i always skipped my meal and i don't have any appetite tooh eat , thats why my gastric strucks me , again .

Yot was nagging all the way on why i dont want tooh eat , and she forced me tooh eat , like EVERYTIME . msg bbl pasal makan , call bbl pasal makan , jmp kene paksa makan , haiyooo ! you ahhh ! but nevertheless , thankyouu soo muchh for the care & concern ((= and i did what you said ouhkay ? i ate A bread ! hehhs . promises are not meant tooh be broken k , frenn ?

Today's plan of watching 2012 was cancelled again , due tooh my gastric . bleaaarggghhhh ~

Aniq fetched me and sent me home , before went back we alighted at cck to have our dinner , and she bought me new eyelashes ! yeaahhh , thankyouu , freennn .

Today , i didnt get tooh talk with e martini's boy ((:

he was pissed and fucked up over something .

haissshhhh .

Everything will go on smoothly , pls trust me .

Don't be this way , i care, and i want to see those sweet smile on your face again .

Its gonna be alright , boy ...

Im heree .

I miss talking tooh you , like we always do ...

do tyqcaaare ouhkay ?

love*

To happy pill , good luck on your assignment ((:

i believe you are capable on doing it ,

you're genuius , mr firemann !

I miss your jokes !!!

nakyq go Ausie eyhhh ?!

TEEEEETTTTTT * ! i lose . ! haaaahh .

Only we knows *wink*

and you toooh , tyqcaaare .

Basically , im MISSING ALOT OF WONDERFUL PEOPLE , IN MY LIFE . *

2009-11-13T16:34:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out tooh cwp to catch a movie .
I Initiated on watching 2012 as yesterday was the grand released of the movie , but unfortunately , all the tickets were sold out . So we watched paranormal activity as a second option .
It was a good choice , i could say , cos the movie really freaks me out ! when everytime the scene part is at night , i'll close my eyes . Two of my frens were laughing like hell ! siaaakq koraaang !
And the ending part was never to be expected ! It neva happen in any other paranormal show that you guys have watched , seriously . You guys should watch !

And maybe today , going to cwp again , tooh watch 2012 ... hehhhs ((=
good huhhh ?
And next week im gona spend most of my time watching movies , yeahhhh .
New dates *

Someone was hurt by reading my blog ..... im sorry .
I neva meant tooh hurt your feelings , from the beginning we haf been together till now we went our separate ways...
But you'd move on tooh fast , whad should i do ? Just watch your happines while my life would be filled with tears & sorrow ? This life has never been fair ... its totally unpredictable how one could change,easily . And now , you'd move on easily with your girlfriend . Atleast you know my dear , you get the attention from the one you loved and be loved by someone special . I only can pray for your happiness with her ,with god's will .

Because I miss you
And this is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all
You know I miss you
I think about you when you're gone
I guess I miss you
Nothing's wrong
I don't mean to carry on

Darren Hayes- I miss you

That someone , thanks for the song ,
im totally loving it .
(",)

are you the one ?

2009-11-12T01:59:00.003+08:00

Atommmm .... !

((=

Well , right now im quite busy with work , and new friends .

Thats the reason why i didnt spare any time to update my blog .

All i did was , msn-ing , tagged-ing , talk-ing on the phone , and yeahh

i will call it a day, soon after those redundant things . so happy huhh ?

Well , im trying hard as i can to move on with my life , and leave all the footprints behind .

When people can do it , why can't I ?

Am I right ?

I wanna dye my hair again ... strawberry-blonde ...

i miss my coloured hair, and i sick with my black hair now... =((

nyhh ahhh org yg tak taoh bersyukur , kaaaaan ?

Sadly , today im not talking with anyone on the phone , and msn friend's are sooo boring today ,

while my other two favourites are enjoying themselve tonight .

Im left all alone with this boring-ness .

Aiyoooooo .

Tomorrow i'll be working at cpf building and yeasshh i can get tooh meet my darling bro ! ahaah .

Sunday will be my graduation day at golden landmoark hotel .

I wish everything will be well-organized and that there will be no mess-ing things up , cos eventually dat school are famous with all sort of nonsensical disorganized matter.

I want to go alone .

Because i know , there will be some stupid things will occur on that day .

Ewwwww, dat school is really sucks .

Please pray hard , that i will get my cert on that day , so i can leave that school and der will be no inter-connection with them anymore, except for the stupid school fees .

I need my beautiful sleep now . Goodbye .

MENANTI SEBUAH JAWAPAN

2009-11-07T02:04:00.004+08:00

well , i spent the whole day rotting at home , as usual ...
helping part-time lover completes her webpage , while she was out for school ...
Shona came around mid-afternoon and she helped me too , cracking brains adjusting all the html codes . Ewwwwww, her school webbie makes me go cuckoo . Its sucks badly . How i wished it was easy as doing html code for blogskin . Grrrrrrrrrr.

I cancelled all my plans today with few peoples . I cancelled sheshaaing with my black apocalypto , cancelled going O bar with my friend aniq , cancelled watching movie with tagged friend , Taufik , cancelled acoompanying Iskandar , to buy his overseas stuff , cancelled meeting up with favourite Jufri . ahaaaah . So with , a few list in hand , i dont even have any idea to go out with who . Guessed slacking at home , will make me feel much better . And anw , Im done watching my tamil movie called ; Arundathi . Rate it 8/10 , well it is an out-dated movie i should say .

Browsed through someone's fs just now , and what did i see ? AN expected shout-out .
And it says ;" luv u bby !! " tooo fast but it wont last ((=
Why don't you delete our lame pics then that dont bring anymore meanings tooh you ?
If you think you'd moved on , then dont turn back . Cos it hurts seeing you with other person .
Guessed she can take care of you better , huhh ?? hmmmm .... fine then .
Be happy ouhkayyy .

Black de apocalypto is going away for one day tooh k.l tomorrow . wish you a safe journey to and fro ouhkayy , my F slut ?? ((= lovelove*

Im working tomorrow ..... like duhhhh . I don't know whether tooh meet _______ or , _______ , or _________ , or _______ ?? hmmmmm .... going out after work , is damn tiring , but atleast i can release my tension ....
cos the one that i one tooh be beside me , is beside someone else right now ....
& i can't do anything to get the person back .
Why must we beg for someone that dont care abt us anymore , but only cares for their freedom & enjoyment ?
Be matured , ouhkay guys ?
You won't go any further with this kind of attitude you guys are putting up .

Heyy , someone didnt call me up ..... bleargghhhh .
Besoykq kite merajoykq dgn awk , tahuuuuuuu hmmmm ? .

you move on to fast ....

so much to say , so little time .

wish upon a star

2009-11-05T23:05:00.005+08:00

Well , today was such a boring and totally mudane day for me . I spent the whole day sitting at home doing nothing . And at late afternoon , by cousin dropped by just tooh accompany me , how sweet of you my part-time lover ? *wink*

I have really fcking no mood today , it started off since early in the morning , till i have no fcking mood tooh go to work , which i skipped again . And luckily , im down with flu, that makes my body really weak to go anywhere , n dat gave me an excuse for not coming to work, again .

Currently , chatting with tagged friends ,and its kinda tiring socializing with some of them -.-
same old things , repeating the same old answer , duhhhhh . whad do you expect then ?
so , when i feel to entertain myself ,i'll entertain them , and if not , i'll just let them talk to my hand . how cruel is that , huh ?

There's nothing interesting for me tooh update about , actually ... People will get tired reading the same ol thing abt me & my lame love story . And if i wanted tooh update about all those stuff , it will take months for me tooh finish taking abt it ... So let me just keep it tooh my own heart , cos if not , they are alot of nosy ppl out there , who are keen to know abt whats happening , and what i wanna wrote about . I just don't wanna private my blog , cos i want haters tooh hate me more . So if ppl nak hate-tag banyak2 , you can do as you wish , cos i dont give a damn anymore... lantaykq korang laaaa k . da malas da bosaaan ,and da penat urhhh . I really lost my mood since this morning incident . Kalau ikotkan hatyh , ade byk yg aku naykq elaborate , but no use kaaaan . nnantyh orang cakap , an egoistic girl like me aseykq naaaykq menang jee . while the fact is that , a selfish person like you , just cnt accept the truth when the truth itself being reveal ....... The damage is all done . And it can't be undone.
If i had given a chance , i want to bring and help her back to the right path , BUT , alotof ppl is protecting her i guess , and they confidently believe that they can lead her to the right way ... to them , im not good enough . But to their thinking , they are always seemingly right . They're like disguising themselve behind their ugly flaws . Ewwwwwww . Living in their own denial world .

We'll never make it throu cos you have friends with smelly heart .
S E L F I S H .

Im praying all day long , for you tooh come back ...

See there is isnt any stars to be seen in the sky since we go our separate ways ..

I swear , i totally miss you .

you win , i lose .

2009-11-05T07:36:00.003+08:00

holla bad girls .

Its raining outside , and i only get tooh enjoy my beautiful sleep that last me for only four fucking hours ? And i'll be working in about four-hours time more . i will surely feel uber duper sleepy later on .. nantoyq bangett dehh . so why im awake at this kind of hour when i supposed to still enjoy my sleeping session ?

Because i argued with this someone , early in the morning . And it makes me lose my mood on everything .

I dont understand why is it so difficult for ppl to accept the fact when the facts are true ?

Ppl tend to cannort accept it or just pretending the words are harsh and soo hurtful , when they didn't know that their action , are more cruel heartless ? Ok die-die you wanna win . I give you the way ... and at the first place pon , you are winning im losing , kaaan ? you got whad you want , and i get nothing right ? They will never understand , they will always think that what they do , and what they voice out, are all true .. Simple isnt , she told me to erase my past and slowly to moveon with the future if i want her in my life backq ? huhhh ???????? When i give her , alot of chances , but she styl didnt managed to overcome that bitch and dare to still claim theyre just colleagues , JUST ??? what type of game are they playing ? monopoly , scrabble , uno , huh ? they talked as if , they're not the one to be blamed , they're innocence ...poor thing they hiding in their own denial .

Mesti dat person b proud eyhh ,when everyone is chosing her to be in their lifes ? That's why she thinks she got her own power , and can ruled their life , as easy as just commanding . And with words , they get easily manipulated and bow tooh her . kenapaa jadyhh orang nayq jadi so selfish ? what do you gain by that ? ure too matured tooh ponder all this , bt i guess the pride in someone's self make them feel proud & honour , tooh be the king of all . easy said , you win kayh ... now you have everyone , everyone dat you need in your life . i lose laaa . because i lost my love one tooh you . happy happy ? i bet so . i know alot of things , which i dont think i have tooh elaborate heree . you can beg , for the person you love and that you cnt afford to lose her ... so our relationship distance is not that fair isnt it ? you save your rship , while you let your own friend's rship hanging and dangling ? because you are selfish . you want tooh be happy for your ownself . because you want tooh conquer both . cos you noe , if she's with me , you cant have her by your side . you influenced her mind and feelings, till she forgets how to think . you ought to show exemplary manners to her , lead her to the right way , not show her to the wrong path ! how could you , damn it ?! and are you happy , seeing her suffering right now ? are you ?! im not ! fcuk . how i wished i cld be beside her right now , help her in her downfall and lead her back throu her life despite shit she had put me throu ... but too bad , she chose you . i don't want to pressure her any longer ... cos maybe her decision to chose you , is the best out of the best . and maybe you know , you cld lead her to a better life , not me .... tolong jangan bawak dy ke jalan yg salah , dat i beg you .. i don't want her to become an addict . hur taykq perlu nasehat kan kahmu , rasany you dont need mine neither . pls take good care of her , dearly on behalf of me , or fully i should say ..

in the end , you win , i lose ....

Im not the girl ,

you heart is missing , that why you go away , I know ..

*breakingdown*

:'((

Just one more chance .

2009-11-04T11:04:00.005+08:00

N U N U turns One year older today , and she's TWO !

Happy 2nd birthday , my beautiful Angel !! ((=

Right now , she's in j.b with my parents and later on im gona tag along to celebrate her birthday , yeayhhhhness * ((:

Well , yesterday i bumped into my long lost fren;Aniq .

Im so ubber duper happy that i lost words to utter to her .

Like finally , ive been searching for her high and low , and there she was standing infront of the outlet , smilling at me . geeees , im soooo happy get to contact with her back ! *grin*

And smlm terpaksaa bueyhh dis someone-.-

Im soorryhh . Actually , i dont want to give you any hope , pls dont fall in love with me ,

im not a good girl for you . Im sorry .

Met sis ernie, bro pai & yot at night . We were planning something since dua2 ekor ; hur & yot nyhh tgh heartbrokenn kaaayn , so we were planning for a trip to ___________ . (",)

I need some happy pill tooh cheer me up , and im grateful as i know , that there is still someone outside there , that i can rely on . After all , its not like the end of the world , you see ? Every one of my friends adviced me this way , and yeah its truue .Furthermore , its not me who is at losing point , its her .

Smlm , we did msged each other .

Standard , we quarelled throu msged . And her ex pon masoykq camporhh . And many moree . And now she's attached to someone , den dont crawling backq tooh me . I guessed the reason why you leave bcos you want freedom and enjoyment . You got it .But it wont last long huh ... Daa taykq guna untoykq menyesal taw . Skrg baru naykq merayu dat you need me , after all the shits you've put me throu ? Ex awak ckp sy takd hatyh peroyt ny orang . ANd still have the gut to ask me to mirror myself ? Wheyy look who's talking kayhh ? Sapaa yang patot tenyeh muka dy pat cermin dulu ? Saya ke awaykq ? I dont think im dat cruel and heartless . It is you who didi this shit . So ........ sapaa nama pompan aru awak , mel huh ? Ouhh , nice name ....

Glaaa hidop dgn dy ouhkay .. hidop atas hasil perempuan , i wanna see how long you can stand .... This enjoyment and freedom that you want won't last you for good , demi Tuhan saya ckp dgn awk mcm gnyhh k __________ .

Atleast your frenn is clever to use her brain to thinkq ! And where did you put yours ? You dont even have your stand in your ownself . Youre 22 , grow up .

I admit i still love you , and i cnt replaced this feelings so shortly . While you , not even a week and you found my replacement ? wow .. that is so damn amazing ..... three cheers for you .

Still you caan say dat you love & still need me ? Sy rasaa awk lebeyhh sayang ego and freedom awk tooh , yg takkan bawakq awak kemana2 . Fikir laaa . And btw , jgn jadyh budayq keyntal sampai ex2 suma nayq msg2 sy , maosk campor , awk bkn budaykq kecyq lagyh k . Mind you .

Aku taykq mengerti , ini semua harus terjadi ...

Broken Hearted Girl

2009-11-03T03:12:00.003+08:00

to all my friends who are single,
love is like a butterfly.
the more you chase it, the more it eludes you.
but if you just let it fly,
it will come to you when you least expect it.
love can make you happy but often it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
so take your time and choose the best.

to all my friends who are heartbroken, heartbreaks last as long as you want; and cut as deep as you allow them to go. the challenge is not how to survive a heartbreaks, but to learn from them.

to all my friends who are naïve, how to be in love: be consistent but not too persistent. share and never be unfair. understand and try not to demand. and get hurt but never keep the pain.

to all my friends who are possessive,
it breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else.
but its more painful to know that the one you love;
is unhappy with you.

to all my friends who are afraid to confess, love hurts when you break up with someone. it hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. but love hurts the most: when the person you love has no idea about how you feel about him/her.

to all my friends who are still holding on, a sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end it was never meant to be; and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it. if that person doesn’t worth it now, its not going to be worth it in a year or 10 years from now.

H E A R T LESS .

2009-11-02T03:31:00.004+08:00

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW .

Im Sucks . -.-

Today , supposed to be our One year and One monthsary .
God , Eaaarrrgggghhhhh !
It all fell apart .
I did wish , but i didnt get any answer in return .

Let me ask , why do i still stay , when the person that i love , insist on me to move on ?
So why do I still stay ? Because i was too hoping , in the end , i break my own fcuking heart .
Im here , crying and kept thinking all the time , but i dont think the person is doing the same thing .
She's enjoying her life to the maximum, fullest level , while im at the loss .
God , i know its nort worth at all , but still im doing e old same thing .
Fcuk me to death .

kau reply msg aku stkt nayq backing salaaa abg kau ? kau maraa aku sbb aku bukayq rahsia dy , sbb kau pon pakat dgn dy sympaan rahsia dari aku . well done . you two-timered me , two times in our forgone relationships .
but you always deny , neva to admit .. how could you , when im so totally-over faithful to only you .
even animal pon ade perasaan ... but human being like you guys , are just too heartless . Oppps , you girls are just tooooo heartless . your place are neva in this world . but planet of the apes suits better for you ppl .
Im trying hard tooh move on w/o you ... Im trying very very hard when i noe its impossible . Damn it !!

M E S S .

2009-10-30T00:57:00.003+08:00

Right now , my life is totally a M E S S .
Im lying here , helplessly , wanting for you , crying without no reason , but you are having fun out there without thinking of me ...
how stoopid and bullshit can i be .
And oouhh , this is the fuckiest suckiest bdae gift , i've evaa get from sumone .
And you wanna noe something ? 20 years of living , i've neva eva fcuking celebrate my birthday with e one i love .
how suckqs caaaaan dat be , huhh ?

just so you know , i've been missing you every fcuking single sec of my life .
all my days were spent by the telephone that never rang . you left me no messages .
And all that were sent tooh you , were meaningless . you didnt even bother tooh reply .
maybe , like you said , we are not meant together . but you neva know how fckingly crazy im in love with youu . i just hope , you will realise every single thing . just remember , karma is there surrounds you . retribution do happen , love .
Now ure enjoying , while im crying helplessly for you ......
You will never feel the pain that you put me throu ...
how i wished you could ......
moveon , if you think dat cld make you change to a better person ...
im not moving .
this love is killing me to death .

how i wished i could be strong like before ...
how i wished i have the guts to tell you , i hate you .
how i wished i never fall in love with you .

Ironically , i prayed every night , for you tooh come backq...
i need to have you in my arms like before ...
because i love you , and i don't know how to live without you ...
im lost ,in my own world , and i couldnt see the direction of ways to bring myself back to the old me .

But ,you remain silent ... you never contact me throu anything .
u leave me dying .....
it was sooo painful for me tooh handle all this by myself ....

Baby , im lying here helplessly waiting for you , while you are having sooo muchh fun ...
Life is totally unfair .... :'(

2009-10-14T00:50:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL .

Due to unforeseen circumstance , i wont be blogging for an unknown period of time

and i'll be on idle .

See yaaa soon earthlings ((=

loveLOVE ;

hislittlegirl .

2009-10-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

When the first time i saw you ,w/o u noticing ,
i start to admire you .
when the first time i get to msg with you ,
i start to have butterflies feelings in my stomach .
remeber when the first time we met each other ?
My baby was soo shy .. And i love it seeing her so simple just like that .
Remember when u try so hard to get me 'spikey' at e arcade place, and i was sooo happy till i feel like hugging you and end up i feel shy and walk away .. ?
And i don't know how does it work when we start to fall in love with each other ...
That was our beginning of lovestory ...
Do you still remember the promise dat you made , that the moon,stars, sky and the sea
are the witnesess to our love ?
And i believed in that ...
021008 is the e date when u propose me as ur official girlfriend ...
remeber when i treat you on a cablecar ride on ur bday ? Your hands were all sweating and you were so nervous making me laugh all the way ..
My baby looks sooo cute and dat makes me fall deeply in love with you ..
Those memories will never be forgotten and i will always treasure it till foreva my dear ..
So today ,marks a year of our togetherness..
Even though we are in a tight situation, but dat never stop me tooh wish a beautiful girl
a beautiful 12th month love .
A year has past ... Everything changed so drastically .
We begin tooh fell apart , and our love starts to shake..
Even how much we said we love each other , but things still remain e same ..
Be happy celebrating your sweet 22nd birthday , and may you enjoy yourself on this special day with your wonderful friends ..
Truly ;
Beautifully-brokenn .

2009-09-29T04:15:00.007+08:00

Yesterday open-house was superbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. After 10 straight years of not having one , atlast we welcome guests tooh our humble crib ((: And yeaaaasss , it wasssss really really really busy and packed here in my house . From as early as 12 in the afternoon till 8 in the evening . Mom was all the way in the kitchen preparing really delicious dishes for the guest and dad busy receiving guests of course as he's the head in this house . As for me , i cant do much working , and i get tired with house full of people , so at times i went out , talking with cousins , aunts , and whoever affiliates with , and at times , i sat in my room , SLEEP . taaakq cukooop tdooo babe !
And i got green packets tooohhh . HEEEEE . *grin widelyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*
Happy , yeayyhhh !! I want open-house again for next year cannn ??????? :P

On friday , went out with that someone ,to i cant remeber where , but at night went tooh meet dearest friend at bugis ((: Ouhhh ! I went tooh my workplace , to discuss about my schedule , and sidetrack , tomorrow i start work agaiin ! yeayyhh . But only short hours , will do . Nahhh , nvm atleast something rather then nothing . Cos i missshh them loads ! K stoppp .
Yeahh , on friday went tooh town , and had dinner at Far East Plaza . Before that , had a tiff with bf , cos of thaaaat BITCH !!! sialanny pompannnn . But then we are backq tooh normal as someone *_ _ _* , hee shame-shame babyy . Snap some pics on that dayy . Enjoyy ((:

Last pictures of the day .

Muka satu2 masaii nakkq mampos .

shagged .

gua still steady ((:

My Only One ((:

To that BITCH ,

if you stumble upon my blog ,

READ THIS .

Kau kalau taaakq puas atyh dengan aku ,

bebual depan2 lurhh sundaL ! Naakq tendang eyhh , naakq bwaad

urhh , asal beranyhh cakap jekq , tak beranyh buat ? Sial , sundal .

Aku memang daa lama takq puas atyh dgn kau lurh !

Ikotkan atyh bukan dlm mimpi jekq aku nakq ludah kau taooh takq !

Aku jalan depan kau dgn dy pimpin tangan pon susahhkan kauu ?

kau siaapaaa ? Daa setahon lurhh , asal maseyhh taakq dapat2 lagyh ?

Pasal kau TAK LAKU kaaan ?!

MenGaKu JeLuRhh !

Kau tunGGU lUrH sAMPAi MatYhhhh PoNNNN !

Eyhh , aku mintaayyq kauu satu jelurhh eyyhh ,

PEGII CERMIN MUKAAA KAU CANTEYYHHQ2 DEPAN CERMIN !

TenGok MUKA KAU layaakq ke tidaakq !

2009-09-22T23:41:00.004+08:00

Well , there's nothing interesting for me tooh update about .
Apparently , Hari Raya was celebrated moderately . Spent most of the time at paternal grandmother house(which we are left with only her) , and we only get to visit 3 houses on first day of rayaa . Im not so eager for rayaa this yr as I know i wont be getting green packets anymoreee . Hehhs . Well , maybe im a money-minded person , dont you think so ? ((:
Another reason is that , with this limping leg of mine , i can't walk too much and i'll strained my muscle easily . Thankgod we don't need tooh take public or it will be worst . Sheeeeshhh .

Well , maybe tomorrow im going tooh school tooh settle some issues with baby accompanying me . Luckily , he's working afternoon shift so we cld spend a lil sometyme in the morning .
Whats moree ? Oh yeahh , just now father was discussing with us abt selling one of his car , as he said he's not strong already tooh drive . Cos everytime when he drives , he tend tooh fall asleep , and mums worried if mishap happened . He met with a so-called accident in the morning while going tooh work . I think he fall asleep , then his car hit the curb ,luckily he realised at that moment , and get tooh stop before the car hit the headlight . Ohmmyygod . All the tyre went flat , and they went tooh send the car for servicing later in the evening , which cost them a total of 600 bucks . Thats why , father intend tooh sell his car , with mum approving but me disagreeing . Hahhh . Cos i hate public , with a transport its more convenient for us . Dad say ,we might as well rent a car and its more cheaper , if we have any function or ocassion . And i give parents a suggestion , why not i take license, so dad wouldnt have to drive anymore , cos wheneva he's in a transport , he will forever sleep . So i'll be his chaffeur , much more easy right ? hahaaa . Mom agreed of me taking license , but , i need your money mom . For now im penniless and jobless ((: Dad offer me tooh work as a clerk at his place , as they need a clerk at this moment . Since the timing is flexible , which is only thurs ,sat and sun , and office hours too , i might be considering it . Atleast i have something tooh do , other than rotting at home .
Well , december would be my cert in dip exam , and i havent yet flip a note . Waaaa piiiaaaangg urrhrhh . Im really2 siiiiiaaaan now . I have tooh do something ,and this time its for real .

Babe.

my Vain babygirl .

2009-09-21T04:10:00.002+08:00

Salam lebaran kepada semua kaum muslimin/muslimat di seluruh negara .
Minal aidin wal faizin wal maqbulin .
Semoga lebaran kali ini disambut dengan penuh keriangan dan keceriaan bersama keluarga/sahabat tersayang .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !

2009-09-15T20:04:00.003+08:00

Its been 3 weeks long ive been rotting at home , with nothing tooh do .
My daily routine are fixed. Slept at 5am , wokeup at 5pm , bathed at 630pm , and continue doing my redundant stuff infront of desktop till near to dusk .
Wht life am i leading right now ?! Damn i miss working soo much !
cutting cakes , making drinks , cleaning the bar station , talking craps with colleagues & manager . Haisshhh ... till when i have tooh stay indoor ? i need moneeeeeyyyyy pokaaiiiiiiii liaaaoooo!!!

past few days , i was webcaming with this sweet(talker) guy ((:
and , my childhood friend tooh . PLayed msn game with her , and of course , i lose the most , standaaard . haaahh . And ouuhhh , tadyhhh childhood friend came down here , as early as 10 in the morning . She nagged and blabber nonsense asking me tooh wakeup , but sorryh dear , i cant . im having my beautiful sleep at that time , remember ? Wokeup only at 1 , and do the house chores later at 3 , with she helping me to vacuuum theeee houseeee. thankyouuuuuuuuuuuuuu((: Soooo muchhhhhh .

a sweet friend of mine , i should sayy .

Im in loveeeeeeeeeeee with Ellen & Portia , both of them are such a sweet item ! How i wish tooh be like them , lol .(:

Ok , this is a taaakq perluu postt .

Im done .

2009-09-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

" Mengapa dia yang ku cinta
Sedangkan ku tahu sikapnya begitu
Dia pandai berpura dan pandai bermain kata
Setahun bersama bak seribu tahun tersiksa

Aku tidak sudi melihat dia lagi
Walau dalam mimpi pun tidak ku ingini
Aku rela menjadi teratai yang layu
Daripada mekar di dalamnya tasik madu
Biarkanlah ku begini
Dan tak mungkin ku kembali
Bersamamu ............ "

Baby , we're done .

2009-09-11T01:00:00.002+08:00

Heyy , todayy is the dayy my lovely bro , for you tooh the serve the nation .

I wish you all the best and pray hard that you would overcome all the obstacles & challenges that you will be facing later on . Be good ouhkayy ? Adekq , shayaaang kamuu ((:

And anw , kauuu jangaan ponteng puasaa laakq , kalau penaat training . But aku taohh , mukaaa kau confirm taaakq puasaaany !! hiiiiiaaaakkkkqqqDuuuuussshhh!!

Anyhoo , whatever it is , i still love youu ayye ? Sad that i didnt get the chances tooh meet you before you go ... hehhs . Nevertheless, i'll meet you aftaa i recover ouhkay ?!

All the bestt abaaangkuu ! And takeaiire tooh ... You will always be remebered .

LoveLove .

2009-09-09T22:51:00.006+08:00

Went tooh SGH in the afternoon accompanied by family . Supposedly , Appointment was scheduled at 2.45pm but just at 2.40pm , we left the house . Its the style of our family , love procrastinating , always and forever . It runs in the blood ((: Ok so we reached there around 3:18pm , gedebaakq gedeboookq registration and i have to wait upon my turn to be called . Mom was restless after half an hour seating beside me (as we dont usually converse w each other) so she decided to go backq to where my father was , and leave me alone tooh consult with the doctor . Yeahh , i waited there like hell , i was called , 1 hour and 40 mins later , amekkkq kauuu baaat , kimaaaakqqq wat daraaah up je urhh . I was feeling restless ,pulaaakq tooh handphone ny batt wat hal . Danaaakq mamposss agakny nyhh handphone . Sortt sial , nasebb taakq puasaaa ^_____^

I was called in , and was examined by two doctors . I reckoned , one is a doctor-trainee from NUS . The result was , my lax are quite thinning thus there's friction between the two joints connected . Eventually , i might b having a frequent dislocation if i didnt do something about it . Its been five years ive been dealing with this problem , and for god sake im just 20 ! And its start from as young as im 15 ! My God ... this thing would surely come out from its position years ahead . So the doc opt me for a surgery . I might be considering it , thou . He gave me an open date for two years , so i can do the sugery any time between this validity . Told mom , that i want tooh do it , around Nov , end of year.. Atleast i could celebrate raya , birthdays , or something , kan kan kan ???? ((: So its up tooh my dad , he's money not mine , ahaa ! Dy lagiii kacyhh idea lagyhhh chanteeeeeeeekkkkkkqqqq pnyaaaaaaaaaaaa ! Dy cakaaaap , "kauuu g cariikq stable job , and ask your companyy tooh sponsorrr your medical ." Wahhhhh , Steaaadyyy kaperhh ?! And he's reeeeaaaaallyyyyyy serious about it . Absurd , isn't ? If i really undergo this surgery , confirm i'll be admitted . Doc said estimated around 4 days warded ,and three weeks MC . Boriiiiiinnnggggg paaaaahhhh ??! Dalaaaa skrggg kejaaa , taakd duett masokkq . And i really have no idea , when can I start working againnnn !! =[ I don't really think now is e right time , as , if i walk quite a long distance , lutot mcm naaaakqqqq tercabottt alekq , i can feel the friction of the joints . Ishhhhhhh , Ya Allah saketnyyy ...... Mom nagged , " kaki kau daaa mcm gnyhhh daaa takkq boleyhh g joget lagii , pegyhh masjid , solat , dengar ceramah , insya allah baekq ... dr bawak kaki kau g tempat maksiat .... ((: " Biasaaaa lurhh , mom kann , always like that .... hee . Someone went tooh Geylang Serai , I missed geylang .. How i wished i could tagged along tooh , sadly i can't ....=(( Ingaaaaat before rayaaaa naakq tron ... abeyhhh bawakkq ap ? wheelchair , tym orang sesak2 gtooh ?! Ass lurhh hur eyhhh . I need a new knee guard , then . Mom please buy for me A.S.A.P ! blearrgghhhqqqqq~~~~~

Picture for the day (((((((((((((:

KNEE DISLOCATION

Knee dislocation is a true orthopaedic emergency. Quite often the knee reduces spontaneously and therefore the true incidence of knee dislocation is not known. There is a significant risk of neurovascular injury. Conservative management has high risks of stiffness and instability and poor function. The recommended management is surgical repair/reconstruction. Therefore the initial evaluation and management of the multiple-ligament injured knee is extremely important.

2009-09-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

Well alot of issues has been brought up lately . Arguements , misunderstanding , hatred , tantrums , tears , sadness , pain & agony , all have been battling up in our relationship this past few days . And i really, totally despise it alot . Am i making the right decision , or an abrupt one ? I don't know . I can't understand what's happening in us . Im tired fighting over un-necessary things or should i say redundant , which wont bring any benefits tooh us . We don't carry any status for now . I admit it , as im e one who makes this decision . Or maybe we just need a time break for each other , and take things slow , and let nature takes it cause. Its tooh personal tooh blog about our internal affair , of which would bring bad conscience about us . I rather bottle up my feelings then blurting out un-necessary script about us , even my heart says to do so . Im controlling all the negative emotions inside me , i just cant let out throu blog . I'm sorryh for throwing tantrums at you , having a heaty arguement and ended with aggressive fights btwn us . I apologise for everything that happened lately ... Im totally bleak right now . There's nothing much for me to say ... Goodbye .

maafkan bila memang kini
harus kutinggalkan dirimu
karna hatiku selalu kau lukai
tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yang ku rasa

ku menangis melepaskan
kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

2009-09-06T10:54:00.003+08:00

Suppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp peeeeeeoooooople !
I dont know why i wakeup sooooo early in the morning todayyyy , plus when there's no one there at home . I was left with only my brotherrr . Tetappp rasaaa mcm aku sorang 2 dalam rumaah .^__^

Last friday , bf brought me out for a walk ((: Initially , i want to try going out without using the help of wheelchair , instead i try to use one of the crutches . But , onlyy until void-deckq , i cannort stand anymooooore . My leg is still not in a stable condition that permits me tooh walk alot . So i went up , and took my superrrr-duperrrr chairr , and off we go (:
Of course , bf push me , now he's getting used to it .... hmmmm , dats better , kaaaaaaan by ?
daaaa taaaakq heavyyyy liiikee piggy kaaaaan ? lols^^

So , out of all places , bf chose to go to Jurong Point . Planned to break our fast anywhere there . Dropped by Gf dhila's workplace , and asked her to join us for break-fasting as well . Bf was sooooooooooo really really patience in handling my spoilt brat attitude . I swear , he is . You know , everytime , when bf pushed me around , patrons were all looking at us skeptically . Doraaang pk aku maen2 perhh saket ?! Handling me so fragile and with care , he didnt even feel embarassed bringing me out . How grateful i am . Thank God . After dinner at banquet , met eysha and her bf , syabil . we parted 15 mins later , as they are going to have their dinner . I asked bf to bring me to HARRIS bookstore , as i intended to buy a book , to accompany me when im bored at home . Currently , i am sooooooooo into this current obsession of the Twilight Saga . I bought and ive read New Moon , and so bf bought for me Eclipse ; the third novel from Stephanie Mayer , the book that i really wanted . yeayyhhh , thanks babyyyy for the treat !!! mwackkqqq ! Settled everything , bf brought me to swensen to have our late dessert ! nyummmy nyummmy ! We had our all-time-favourite Sticky Chewy Chocolate , and it was supeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr deli-cious . Sumpahhh , taaakq bedekkq ! Bf sent me home & home sweet home .

Saturday was doing nothing except rotting at home like hell ^_____________^
Guaaa perrhhh idoppp mendaakkq eyhh skrangg ! I was thinking when can i start working again .... I have no income for Oct .... haissshh . I need money mannn... Siiiannn urhh . And i need to find a new stable job tooh , my dad keep nagging and pestering me , like till forever ? hmmmmpfttt. Wednesday i need to go back to SGH for a bone checkup . Kaki naaaaakq pakaiiii lamaaa eyhh , baru 20 , kaki daaa asekq copot2 . Mcm kaki doll lakq , hehhs !

Hopiiiing tooooh meet theee booooyfriiiiend todayy ! please rescue me out of this place ...... i need new air to breathe in !!!!! PLs , come fastttt , im HUNGRY now !!! Naaakqqq maaaam !! toodlesss ((:

Sticky Chewy((:

Hand-in time !!!Assignment Assigned .

iloveyou bonceyyhhtt ! ((:

2009-09-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , i just don't know what to say to those people out there that are jealous with our relationship . I know , the only thing they want is to see us in a rocky condition . Why urhhhkq ? Anyyyyyyyyy probleeeeemmmm ??

Kitaorangg susaahkan koraaang kerrh ? takkq uhhhnnn . Taakq ketokkq pintoooh rumaaa koraang pon mintaaaakq dueett nor beraaaaaas ?
Jadyyyhhh knp susaahhh atyyhhh sangaaaaat eyyhhh ? Geraaaaaaammmm urhhh kadaang kadaang . Uncivilized people , i should call them ?

*OoooPsss Sooooryyyhhhhkqq eeeyyyyyhhhkkkqq*

Personally speakinngg , what do you REALLY know about US ? authentically , without a doubt , what do you guys know ? Laaaaeeen kaaaalyyyhhh , jaaagaaa tepyhh kaenn koraaang duluuuu , aru leyhh jagaaa periuukkkq nacyhhh oraaang laeeeeeeeeeen , pahaaaaam taaakkq ? Succchhhhh a nosy people . Jackass . Tryyy lurrhhh tryyy k . We prove you wrooongg .

Life was pretty mundane this few days . Especially when i have nothing tooh do . atleast , the past few days , time was spent with finishing my project . Since , ive submitted my proposal , there's nothing i can do , unless watching stoopid movies on the net , and checking some redundant things . Waaaaaaa siiiiiaaaaan urrhhh !! Hopiiing tooh meet someone tomorrow , with condition , that you have tooh fetchh me from home , right lovey-dovey ?? ((:

Alhamdulillah , my bestfriend texted me in the afternoon , and sent me the good news . She's totally safe right now , giving birth to a babygurl . Lepaaaas akuu baeekq nntyhh aku visit kauu k dearr ? rumahh dekat pon taakq sampai2 eyyhhhkq . Atleast , bapakq and abang kau terima kau , its a relieved for me .

Alhamdulillah .

Ive been downloading raya's song since afternoon , hehhhs . smangaaat rayaa eyhhkq . Hmmm , aderr orang tooh daaa mintakkq2 lurhh kaaan . taaakq sabar2 naaakq rayaaa .((: Well , i miss alot of my old friends .... like , everybody are busy with their own daily life , same goes tooh me . I cant wait to be graduating sooonnn !!! And i still havent yet plan for my futureee . Grrrrr .

Blooody ass , hur .

Sayonaaaraaaa people .

Ive no blooody mood tooh blog .

Bloooody hell .